From the Sidelines
Rating: G
Prompt: #062 - Spring
Claim: The Time War
Table: Here
Spoilers: None
Pairing: Fitz/Doctor (8)
Summary: Fitz spent too many years fearing this moment.
Note: I decided that dear Fitz finally deserved a kiss.
It is a warm evening in spring on a planet with no name when Fitz kisses the Doctor.
It is a kiss almost chaste but not. There are no tongues involved, no roaming hands. It’s not at all how Fitz has imagined because he spent a lot of time not imagining this. It lasts, still, longer than he expects, because all the time, while his lips touch the Doctor’s just softly, Fitz thinks I should stop this but his body doesn’t react to the thought.
The planet doesn’t really have no name, just no name Fitz bothered to learn. He wishes he had, now, because he wants to remember all about this moment. Wants to remember the colour of the clouds and the smell of the air and most of all the taste of the Doctor’s lips and the way his long hair is moving slightly in the soft breeze. Even the calm sadness in the other’s eyes as he looks at Fitz and the slump of his shoulders under Fitz’s leather coat. Because he spend too many years fearing this moment. Because all his life the idea of liking another man has scared him. And because the Doctor silently, without asking, crept into his heart; and now, just as silent, he’s creeping out of his life and Fitz can only watch, helplessly, from the sidelines.
The Time Lord never speaks of it, but Fitz knows. Something is happening and he has to go, eventually. He has no say in it.
But it is his life and he doesn’t want to watch it fall apart.
And so he kisses the Doctor. And he takes, after breaking the kiss, the Doctor’s hands and lowers his gaze. Rough male finger circling just loosely around male fingers. It looks wrong, but it doesn’t feel wrong.
“Fitz,” the Doctor says. Just that.
Fitz shakes his head and can’t look up. But the Doctor doesn’t let go of his hand when he turns and gently leads him back to the TARDIS.
The doors falls shut behind them and Fitz doesn’t look back. He might have, had he known this was the last alien planet he’d ever see.
November 16, 2007
Prompt: #062 - Spring
Claim: The Time War
Table: Here
Spoilers: None
Pairing: Fitz/Doctor (8)
Summary: Fitz spent too many years fearing this moment.
Note: I decided that dear Fitz finally deserved a kiss.
It is a warm evening in spring on a planet with no name when Fitz kisses the Doctor.
It is a kiss almost chaste but not. There are no tongues involved, no roaming hands. It’s not at all how Fitz has imagined because he spent a lot of time not imagining this. It lasts, still, longer than he expects, because all the time, while his lips touch the Doctor’s just softly, Fitz thinks I should stop this but his body doesn’t react to the thought.
The planet doesn’t really have no name, just no name Fitz bothered to learn. He wishes he had, now, because he wants to remember all about this moment. Wants to remember the colour of the clouds and the smell of the air and most of all the taste of the Doctor’s lips and the way his long hair is moving slightly in the soft breeze. Even the calm sadness in the other’s eyes as he looks at Fitz and the slump of his shoulders under Fitz’s leather coat. Because he spend too many years fearing this moment. Because all his life the idea of liking another man has scared him. And because the Doctor silently, without asking, crept into his heart; and now, just as silent, he’s creeping out of his life and Fitz can only watch, helplessly, from the sidelines.
The Time Lord never speaks of it, but Fitz knows. Something is happening and he has to go, eventually. He has no say in it.
But it is his life and he doesn’t want to watch it fall apart.
And so he kisses the Doctor. And he takes, after breaking the kiss, the Doctor’s hands and lowers his gaze. Rough male finger circling just loosely around male fingers. It looks wrong, but it doesn’t feel wrong.
“Fitz,” the Doctor says. Just that.
Fitz shakes his head and can’t look up. But the Doctor doesn’t let go of his hand when he turns and gently leads him back to the TARDIS.
The doors falls shut behind them and Fitz doesn’t look back. He might have, had he known this was the last alien planet he’d ever see.
November 16, 2007