I have sleep disorders so dysfunctional I should be a text book. The night before my sleep clinic appointment and I have insomnia. I haven't had insomnia this bad in months, probably 8 or 9 in fact. I have been waiting a god damn month for this appointment and I have a feeling I am going to be seriously disappointed. It is likely going to be an ( Read more... )

I have reached that interesting stage of sleep disorder. You really have to be me to appreciate this level of near insanity. Through experience I have found that there is a beautiful time when over-sleeping combined with mild insomnia create a beautiful day. Staying up for 18 or so hours a day, then sleeping for 16 creates an interesting rolling ( Read more... )

I had two really fucked up dreams, I think I need to race them and see which is more fucked up.

On the other hand I really need to stop dreaming about the chicks I went to school with and how attractive they are now because back then they were cute and I was too stupid to notice.

Christmas, New Years. To some it is the fake anniversary of the birth of their Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To others it is the anniversary of when some oil burned for 8 days. To me it seems to signal the beginning of an Autophobic state of mind. For those of you who havn't been reading random passages of my ICQ message histories with random girls ( Read more... )

I just realized something. I am an asshole, but I am great at what I do. I have also realized that people deserve it. If I am being an asshole to you, the chances are you deserve it. I wouldn't be an asshole without reason, that just wouldn't be cool. Also, I know far too many bitchs.

So, at work today some dumb bitch tried to get me, my brother and someone else fired. I should probably explain, the three of us were discussing tourette's syndrome, in a non-derogatory fashion, we were discussing it rather maturely and people we knew who had it. Then we started talking about something completely different. After a little while ( Read more... )

I had the weirdest fucking dream this morning. It was about this girl at work who is sort of cute, but not really all that attractive, which sucks because she is cool and has a nice body. Anyways, in this dream she and I were discussing the conditions of a serious relationship, only we were discussing it as a federal, intercontinental trade ( Read more... )

I think I made a mistake.

That made more sense this afternoon when I remembered what mistake I thought I made. As it stands I can't remember what I was thinking, so I think I made a mistake, I just don't know what it is.

An interesting paradigm shift has occured, in the early days of working I could have probably remembered what I talked about to each different girl in the training class, but since I have gotten to know them for the most part I no longer see any of them as potential girlfriends I can no longer really differentiate between them, I can't remember ( Read more... )

So at work there is this thing we use that is called the "Orange Bible" Orange being Cingular because before Cingular it was AT&T which was "Blue" anyways, we have this assignment to get to learn how to use CSP or The Orange Bible better. I was having some trouble with it because it wasn't organized the way I would organize it. So after the test I ( Read more... )