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[usedrage]

--t your life was wasted your life on me!?

[OH BOY. HERE'S ANOTHER EPISODE OF KEN AMADA HAS REALLY BIG FUCKING ISSUES. THIS IS A CROSS OVER EPISODE WITH SHNINJIRO ARAGAKI HAS EVEN BIGGER FUCKING ISSUES. Because that's whose big, gruff voice is coming over the gear next.]

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[audio]

[bufudyned]

[A surprised and concerned Mitsuru can be heard on the other end, cutting in with her stern demeanor]

Aragaki, Amada.

What's going on?

[audio]

[bufudyned]

The subject matter... yes, you're right. It may not be my concern.

But your well-being-- the well-being of someone I trust and care for-- is my business.

[audio]

[usedrage]

I'm fine.

[audio]

[bufudyned]

Amada...

[She has never been good at things like this, but still, she presses on]

I understand that my telling you how important you are to us will sound meaningless if you don't believe it on your own, but... you are alive. You were given the chance to fight. Beyond that, you were given a chance to continue living.

You have so many things you could do with that chance.

[usedrage]

I'm not going to do anything, Mitsuru-san, so stop thinking you know what happened. [He's just. mad.]

[bufudyned]

. . . I'm glad to hear that.

[she doesn't comment on the last part, because it's true, she doesn't know what happened. she just hopes whatever it was... it doesn't keep Ken or Shinji thinking that either of them would be better off dead]

[audio] ....seperate thread time, maybe?

[useddeathbound]

[Nobody believes it was the better option that he died? Him, the dropout, the supressant addict, the deserter, the traitor? That's pretty stupid of them. And it doesn't change a thing in the end.]

So?

[audio] sounds good to me!

[bufudyned]

'So' is not an appropriate response, Aragaki.

[she's trying to sound stern, but there's a hint of emotion in her voice]

Dying, throwing away your life... it is never the preferred option.

[audio]

[useddeathbound]

What does it matter? I still died. [And you were all better off for it.] With or without your approval.

[audio]

[bufudyned]

Only because I was foolish enough not to foresee it!

[she catches herself after that, and continues a bit more calmly]

... there were-- are, even-- people who mourned.

[audio]

[usedrage]

[told you so shinjiro-san :|]

[audio]

[useddeathbound]

[Long pause.

...he's still there, isn't he?

He wouldn't hang up on her just like that, would he?

Right?]

I know.

[Too bad that can't retroactively prevent it. ...or would, really.]

[audio]

[bufudyned]

Then how can you say it didn't matter?

[audio]

[useddeathbound]

I'm not saying it didn't matter. I'm saying it doesn't change anything.

[audio]

[bufudyned]

That isn't true. If you had survived that day, I'm certain it would have changed a lot.

[audio]

[useddeathbound]

Maybe.

[Only maybe, because the supressants still would have killed him. But that wasn't even the point he was trying to make.]

I'm saying not wanting me dead doesn't change that I died.