it hurts this time. all over. everywhere. i wanted to do something about it, but i'm not sure i should. because what i want to do is bad, or so i'm told. i tried to call you, so i wouldn't be stupid, but you didn't answer. maybe you hate me. or maybe you are trying not to do something stupid yourself. or maybe, just maybe, you're out, cause you don ( Read more... )

how can it ALWAYS get ruined? i wish i did't have a birthday, wish i wasn't born, cause then i wouldn't have this problem. none of these problems. screw it. my birthday is officially not my birthday anymore. don't wish me anything monday. i don't 1)deserve it, and 2)wish it hadn't happen, so why remember it?
later.

closure is a good thing.

even if it's a simple apology, it's still closure.

my birthday is monday. what did you get me ( Read more... )

steph told me about one of these songs tonight, then i heard the other on the radio on the way home. you can probably figure out which is which. also, under the cut will be a little story before the lyrics...

( this one is for tim )

sandi is getting me Heavier than Heaven for my birthday [it's about kurt cobain], cause i asked her, cause that's what i want. i'm excited. and tim got me something today. and i wanna know what it is. i can't wait till sunday and monday. fun stuff. =]

can someone be in love with you if they barely know you?

i have a dilemma. one that i shalt not discuss on here. mostly because of people who read this. and even if i made it friends only, people who shouldn't see it, would still be able to. i should've gone where i was gonna go tonight. i should've done my homework and gone to the lacrosse game, like i thought about. but i'm not, and i'm not even going ( Read more... )

hey people ( Read more... )

g'morning.