065. Grip // Reset
Title: Reset
Character Pairing: EunHae {Eunhyuk/Donghae}
Rating: G - like always, LOL
Warnings: Character Death
Summary: For once, Donghae wanted to press RESET and change his fate to satisfy everyone's needs.
Notes: Well, I haven't posted in a while. TT____TT But whatever, I hope you like it ! More notes at the bottom, dears.
Love is still lingering in my room
Before the memory becomes real, in a moment
It felt like you were in front of my eyes
Around me (loneliness is spreading)
This vision (is being blurred by tears)
A sentence “I love you”, I left it deep
in the bottom of my heart and put it on the tip of my lips
-Blue Tomorrow, Super Junior M
People say everything leaves a mark, whether you know it or not. The people in our lives, the things we do - or maybe the things we don’t do - the places, the events, hell, maybe even the clothes we wear - they all leave a mark. They say that some things leave impressions, the deeper the connection we have to one thing, the deeper the cut. Does this mean that our “armor” on the outside is already flawed with scratches, dents, bites, and bruises? What about the inside? What about our fragile skin that’s so sensitive to a finger’s soft touch or the heart that beats every moment of the day? The heart itself, as we all know, can only hold so much.
You know when you love someone so much it hurts? You know how when they come into the room, your breath is taken away? Have you ever felt that about someone? Sometimes, when this happens to me, I honestly think I’m in love. He simply took my breath away with everything he did; and he was perfect in every way. Lee Hyukjae - or Eunhyuk, as he preferred it - was once that person who left me speechless when he smiled. His kisses left me weak in the knees, even the ones that barely pressed our lips together. He would invade my mind 24/7; I couldn’t get enough of him.
He was one of a kind, Eunhyuk. “Donghae-ah! Do you know why the sky cries so much?” he would ask me on my gloomy days. I would shake my head, looking out at the cloud-filled sky. It always seemed to rain on my bad days. “The sky cries so much because when you’re sad, Hae, it’s sad too,” he would whisper in my ear softly. Eunhyuk always had a certain way with words that made my moods brighter. After he tells me this on bad days, he would pull me close to him and smile that gummy grin of his before softly kissing me. “Don’t be sad, Hae. For me?”
Whenever he said that, I had no choice but to smile and snuggle closer to him. Eunhyuk liked being close together; it made him feel comfortable. In return, I also found comfort while fitting perfectly in his muscular arms. Honestly, I’ll say that I miss it. I miss the coconut-scented shampoo he used, the cologne that clung to his clothes and skin, and that permanent smirk on his baby face. I missed it all.
Somewhere between the hugs and kisses was something changing. Something bad was coming - I didn’t know when because of course, I was no psychic. I didn’t notice it at first because it was so vague and unclear. I was caught up in the moment and didn’t even realize that the strings that I held so tightly were coming undone one by one.
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“Yah! Donghae-ah~!” Eunhyuk’s voice was calling for me from across the crowded room. It was Christmas day and Eunhyuk and I were in charge of throwing a party for everyone. The entire apartment was filled with loud chatter, fits of giggles, men in striking black suits, and clinking glasses. Sungmin, Kyuhyun, and Ryeowook sat in the corner with the grand piano. A sweet melody blended in with the extra noise in the room as the conversations grew and memories floated around the room. I always liked having parties; they were so carefree and enjoyable.
Eunhyuk was by my side now with that silly gummy smile of his. He had two Shirley Temples in his hand, one for me and one for him. As he handed me the drink, he whispered in my ear, “Meet me outside in ten minutes. I’ll tell Kangin and Leeteuk-hyung to watch the house for us, okay?” And without another word, Eunhyuk left, leaving a kiss on my cheek.
A rush of adrenaline shot through my body once the clock’s hands turned to 9. It was the feeling like we were in high school again; Eunhyuk and I were sneaking off to see each other without parents knowing. But in this case, we were just sneaking off into the night. The excitement made my heart pound against my chest, making it hard to breathe sometimes. But when I was in Eunhyuk’s company, everything was perfectly normal. And in the end, he never failed to take my breath away.
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Snow fell softly on the ground outside the car, leaving everything in sight under a white blanket of snow. The moon sat alone in the sky, looking it never felt more alone. Stars twinkled against the dark night as Eunhyuk and I drove downtown to see the Christmas lights. Our hands were intertwined and it made everything seem…right.
“Hae, when was the last time we played in the snow?” Eunhyuk looked at me for a brief moment, squeezing my hand. I scrunched up my face, trying to remember.
“Last winter? I think that’s when we graduated, Hyukkie,” I said, looking at the snow. The snow glowed red, green, blue, and white from the lights on the tree in the middle of the square. The tree stood as tall as the tallest building in the area, making everything around it seem inferior. It towered over the snowmen and the pedestrians milling around in the snow. The shops had their windows open and despite the cold weather, they let the Christmas music from their stores flow into the street.
“Ah, why is it snowing so much?” The wind was blowing fairly hand, causing the snow to almost cover the entire windshield. Eunhyuk had a look of frustration on his pale face. He leaned forward, trying to see out the window.
“Maybe we should stop. Wait until the snow dies down?” I suggested, squeezing my hands together tightly. I had a feeling in the pit of my stomach, like something terrible was going to happen. A deep sigh left my dry lips, making a cloud appear in front of my face. I watched the clouds disappear right in front of my eyes, like a snowflake melting on the tip of my tongue.
Eunhyuk didn’t say anything and I didn’t either. For in that one moment of silence, my entire world turned upside down, leaving me alone in darkness. The snow turned black, the ground under me felt cold and wet, and I was torn apart. My eyes closed as I hit the ground, twenty feet away from the car. I moaned, feeling pain shoot all across my body. My hands instinctively reached out for Eunhyuk’s warm and familiar grip, but sadly, I never found it.
Screams filled the air as the snowflakes falling from the star-lit sky touched my face. Struggling to keep an eye open, I managed to see another car toppled over Eunhyuk’s. It was left in disarray, like a cup of coffee spilled across a table. The next sight I saw was one that left me heartbroken for the longest time.
There, in the middle of the street, laid Eunhyuk. His head was bleeding, as was everything around him. A pool of water and blood seeped through his clothes, making me cry out loud. He looked so lifeless just like a doll that a little child had thrown away in the corner. I couldn’t bring myself to look at him anymore because for every second that I stared, the more my heart broke. It was right then that I knew what our fate was.
I would never see him again. Tears filled my eyes, slowing moving down my cheeks. A loud sob escaped from my mouth once more, filling the air along with the Christmas music. More people gathered around the scene, some sobbing into scarves and others frantically calling the paramedics. I didn’t think of what was happening; I only thought of the past, the memories Eunhyuk and I had and the love that we had. In the end, as I was carried away into a small ambulance, I stole another sorrowful glance at him. My heart drowned in despair because I knew that we would never see each other for a lifetime. Eunhyuk was dead.
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Every night I would lay in bed and stare at the ceiling, wondering what I had done to deserve this kind of punishment. The side of the bed next to me would feel empty and cold, just like how I felt everyday. His scent still lingered in the room, surrounding me like he used to when we were together. When it hurt so much knowing he wouldn’t be there, I cried. I cried my eyes out until there weren’t any tears left. And once I was done, it felt like my heart was heavier than it was before.
Memories were the only things I had left. Recordings of us talking on my phone would be played every night just so I could hear his voice once again. Tapes of us dancing were thrown around somewhere, but I could never find them. Pictures, drawings, videos. Those were the only things we had together. But they would never fell the empty spot in my chest.
I had a grip on my life. A grip so tight that nothing could slip out of my fingers and disappear. But I guess I managed to slip and let some things dissolve into the air. I needed to get the grip back, no matter what. But every time I tried to do so, the feelings came back and once again, I felt lost.
For me, getting a grip on reality was easy. No sweat. It’s the part where I have to hold everything together without breaking down that’s hard. So, for now, everything manages to slip between my fingers - even the memories and love that I once had.
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OHMYGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD what is wrong with me. |: DAMN YOU WRITERS BLOCK, I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU ! D:< idek what this is. no..just no. |: this was a major writing fail and i don’t like this, even though this took like a month to write. AAANNNND this is like, shorter than i expected, FML. okaay, onto the next story for me !
yaaaay, i love writing sad stories. leave comments please! they make me all warm and fuzzy on the inside. <3 and if you want to read these stories first, follow me on tumblr ! i post all my stories there first . :D
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mainly 2PM and Super Junior. :D
Character Pairing: EunHae {Eunhyuk/Donghae}
Rating: G - like always, LOL
Warnings: Character Death
Summary: For once, Donghae wanted to press RESET and change his fate to satisfy everyone's needs.
Notes: Well, I haven't posted in a while. TT____TT But whatever, I hope you like it ! More notes at the bottom, dears.
Love is still lingering in my room
Before the memory becomes real, in a moment
It felt like you were in front of my eyes
Around me (loneliness is spreading)
This vision (is being blurred by tears)
A sentence “I love you”, I left it deep
in the bottom of my heart and put it on the tip of my lips
-Blue Tomorrow, Super Junior M
People say everything leaves a mark, whether you know it or not. The people in our lives, the things we do - or maybe the things we don’t do - the places, the events, hell, maybe even the clothes we wear - they all leave a mark. They say that some things leave impressions, the deeper the connection we have to one thing, the deeper the cut. Does this mean that our “armor” on the outside is already flawed with scratches, dents, bites, and bruises? What about the inside? What about our fragile skin that’s so sensitive to a finger’s soft touch or the heart that beats every moment of the day? The heart itself, as we all know, can only hold so much.
You know when you love someone so much it hurts? You know how when they come into the room, your breath is taken away? Have you ever felt that about someone? Sometimes, when this happens to me, I honestly think I’m in love. He simply took my breath away with everything he did; and he was perfect in every way. Lee Hyukjae - or Eunhyuk, as he preferred it - was once that person who left me speechless when he smiled. His kisses left me weak in the knees, even the ones that barely pressed our lips together. He would invade my mind 24/7; I couldn’t get enough of him.
He was one of a kind, Eunhyuk. “Donghae-ah! Do you know why the sky cries so much?” he would ask me on my gloomy days. I would shake my head, looking out at the cloud-filled sky. It always seemed to rain on my bad days. “The sky cries so much because when you’re sad, Hae, it’s sad too,” he would whisper in my ear softly. Eunhyuk always had a certain way with words that made my moods brighter. After he tells me this on bad days, he would pull me close to him and smile that gummy grin of his before softly kissing me. “Don’t be sad, Hae. For me?”
Whenever he said that, I had no choice but to smile and snuggle closer to him. Eunhyuk liked being close together; it made him feel comfortable. In return, I also found comfort while fitting perfectly in his muscular arms. Honestly, I’ll say that I miss it. I miss the coconut-scented shampoo he used, the cologne that clung to his clothes and skin, and that permanent smirk on his baby face. I missed it all.
Somewhere between the hugs and kisses was something changing. Something bad was coming - I didn’t know when because of course, I was no psychic. I didn’t notice it at first because it was so vague and unclear. I was caught up in the moment and didn’t even realize that the strings that I held so tightly were coming undone one by one.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ♥
“Yah! Donghae-ah~!” Eunhyuk’s voice was calling for me from across the crowded room. It was Christmas day and Eunhyuk and I were in charge of throwing a party for everyone. The entire apartment was filled with loud chatter, fits of giggles, men in striking black suits, and clinking glasses. Sungmin, Kyuhyun, and Ryeowook sat in the corner with the grand piano. A sweet melody blended in with the extra noise in the room as the conversations grew and memories floated around the room. I always liked having parties; they were so carefree and enjoyable.
Eunhyuk was by my side now with that silly gummy smile of his. He had two Shirley Temples in his hand, one for me and one for him. As he handed me the drink, he whispered in my ear, “Meet me outside in ten minutes. I’ll tell Kangin and Leeteuk-hyung to watch the house for us, okay?” And without another word, Eunhyuk left, leaving a kiss on my cheek.
A rush of adrenaline shot through my body once the clock’s hands turned to 9. It was the feeling like we were in high school again; Eunhyuk and I were sneaking off to see each other without parents knowing. But in this case, we were just sneaking off into the night. The excitement made my heart pound against my chest, making it hard to breathe sometimes. But when I was in Eunhyuk’s company, everything was perfectly normal. And in the end, he never failed to take my breath away.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ♥
Snow fell softly on the ground outside the car, leaving everything in sight under a white blanket of snow. The moon sat alone in the sky, looking it never felt more alone. Stars twinkled against the dark night as Eunhyuk and I drove downtown to see the Christmas lights. Our hands were intertwined and it made everything seem…right.
“Hae, when was the last time we played in the snow?” Eunhyuk looked at me for a brief moment, squeezing my hand. I scrunched up my face, trying to remember.
“Last winter? I think that’s when we graduated, Hyukkie,” I said, looking at the snow. The snow glowed red, green, blue, and white from the lights on the tree in the middle of the square. The tree stood as tall as the tallest building in the area, making everything around it seem inferior. It towered over the snowmen and the pedestrians milling around in the snow. The shops had their windows open and despite the cold weather, they let the Christmas music from their stores flow into the street.
“Ah, why is it snowing so much?” The wind was blowing fairly hand, causing the snow to almost cover the entire windshield. Eunhyuk had a look of frustration on his pale face. He leaned forward, trying to see out the window.
“Maybe we should stop. Wait until the snow dies down?” I suggested, squeezing my hands together tightly. I had a feeling in the pit of my stomach, like something terrible was going to happen. A deep sigh left my dry lips, making a cloud appear in front of my face. I watched the clouds disappear right in front of my eyes, like a snowflake melting on the tip of my tongue.
Eunhyuk didn’t say anything and I didn’t either. For in that one moment of silence, my entire world turned upside down, leaving me alone in darkness. The snow turned black, the ground under me felt cold and wet, and I was torn apart. My eyes closed as I hit the ground, twenty feet away from the car. I moaned, feeling pain shoot all across my body. My hands instinctively reached out for Eunhyuk’s warm and familiar grip, but sadly, I never found it.
Screams filled the air as the snowflakes falling from the star-lit sky touched my face. Struggling to keep an eye open, I managed to see another car toppled over Eunhyuk’s. It was left in disarray, like a cup of coffee spilled across a table. The next sight I saw was one that left me heartbroken for the longest time.
There, in the middle of the street, laid Eunhyuk. His head was bleeding, as was everything around him. A pool of water and blood seeped through his clothes, making me cry out loud. He looked so lifeless just like a doll that a little child had thrown away in the corner. I couldn’t bring myself to look at him anymore because for every second that I stared, the more my heart broke. It was right then that I knew what our fate was.
I would never see him again. Tears filled my eyes, slowing moving down my cheeks. A loud sob escaped from my mouth once more, filling the air along with the Christmas music. More people gathered around the scene, some sobbing into scarves and others frantically calling the paramedics. I didn’t think of what was happening; I only thought of the past, the memories Eunhyuk and I had and the love that we had. In the end, as I was carried away into a small ambulance, I stole another sorrowful glance at him. My heart drowned in despair because I knew that we would never see each other for a lifetime. Eunhyuk was dead.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ♥
Every night I would lay in bed and stare at the ceiling, wondering what I had done to deserve this kind of punishment. The side of the bed next to me would feel empty and cold, just like how I felt everyday. His scent still lingered in the room, surrounding me like he used to when we were together. When it hurt so much knowing he wouldn’t be there, I cried. I cried my eyes out until there weren’t any tears left. And once I was done, it felt like my heart was heavier than it was before.
Memories were the only things I had left. Recordings of us talking on my phone would be played every night just so I could hear his voice once again. Tapes of us dancing were thrown around somewhere, but I could never find them. Pictures, drawings, videos. Those were the only things we had together. But they would never fell the empty spot in my chest.
I had a grip on my life. A grip so tight that nothing could slip out of my fingers and disappear. But I guess I managed to slip and let some things dissolve into the air. I needed to get the grip back, no matter what. But every time I tried to do so, the feelings came back and once again, I felt lost.
For me, getting a grip on reality was easy. No sweat. It’s the part where I have to hold everything together without breaking down that’s hard. So, for now, everything manages to slip between my fingers - even the memories and love that I once had.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ♥
OHMYGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD what is wrong with me. |: DAMN YOU WRITERS BLOCK, I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU ! D:< idek what this is. no..just no. |: this was a major writing fail and i don’t like this, even though this took like a month to write. AAANNNND this is like, shorter than i expected, FML. okaay, onto the next story for me !
yaaaay, i love writing sad stories. leave comments please! they make me all warm and fuzzy on the inside. <3 and if you want to read these stories first, follow me on tumblr ! i post all my stories there first . :D
TUMBLR : quachrocket.tumblr.com
and if you wanna know what i post, i usually post about kpop stuff. <3
mainly 2PM and Super Junior. :D