hunhan: like a dream ii
Title: Like A Dream
Pairing: Sehan / Hunhan; Layhan
Genre: Romance, Angst, AU
Summary: The first time Sehun met Luhan? He was sitting quietly in his favorite bubbletea shop and then a stranger came to him, kissed him without hesitation - calling him “Yixing”. It all happened so fast, and he fell in love with Luhan just like that.
.like a dream
-like a dream I have met you, like a dream we loved;
(our love was as happy as a dream);
like a dream you have appeared; like a dream you have left.
- like a dream; apink
The practice session for the day was over just like that and Sehun knew he didn’t do well. He was too bothered by Luhan and his actions.
“Sehun …” Jongin called his name.
Sehun looked at Jongin and asked what he needed.
Jongin shrugged. “I just went outside the building and Luhan was there.”
As soon as he heard what Jongin said, Sehun picked up his bag instantly and dashed out from the room. He ran to the stairs and smiled happily as he saw Luhan’s back.
“Luhan!” He shouted, still smiling.
Luhan looked around and smiled back, running to his side. “I was waiting for you to come to my place but you didn’t.”
I did, his mind whispered. “Sorry. I was busy.” He bit his lower lip.
Tiptoeing, Luhan planted a kiss on Sehun’s lips. “Let’s go home, Yixing.”
Sehun willed his heart to quit pounding with the simple gesture that Luhan just made. He found his self nodding as Luhan grabbed his bag - carried it on his left hand and the right holding his.
Everything was so wrong yet why did it feel so right just to have Luhan by his side?
☆彡～
It had almost been a week since Sehun and Luhan lived together. Nothing seemed wrong - except Luhan kept calling him as Yixing. Sehun still pretended he was Yixing, either. And to top that, he found himself falling deeply for the older guy.
“Hey, wake up.” Luhan greeted him as he felt a tickle on his sole.
Sehun opened his eyes and jokingly kicked Luhan. He lazily got up from bed and rubbed his eyes. Luhan came to him, pink apron wrapping his hips.
“You lazy ass,” Luhan commented as he wrapped his hands on Sehun’s waist.
Smiling widely, Sehun hugged Luhan back. Luhan really loves doing sweet gestures. He felt Luhan’s face being buried on the crook of his neck. “Stop sniffing me.” He teased.
“Hmm …” Luhan hummed. “I love you scent.”
☆彡～
Everything seemed perfect until Sehun noticed something went wrong with Luhan’s actions.
Sehun came home dead tired one night as he headed straight to the sofa in the living room. Luhan came out from the kitchen, eyes bulging out from their sockets.
“Yixing, stay away from here. Faster!” Luhan shouted.
Knotting his forehead, Sehun started at Luhan, questioning. “What’s wrong?”
“Don’t you see it?” Luhan asked staring intently at the sofa.
“See what?” Sehun asked and was about to look down when Luhan ran to him and dragged him
away.
“You were almost killed. Are you blind? Didn’t you see the snake?! It was right behind you!” Luhan breathed, trying to calm himself down.
Sehun looked at Luhan with disbelief and confusion. Was he seeing things? He stared back at
the sofa and it was really empty. “What’s going on?” He asked Luhan as he cupped his small face, fear visible on the older guy’s eyes.
“Am I seeing things again?” Luhan asked in a weak voice, hardly audible.
Without answering, Sehun kissed Luhan on his lips. Maybe it was an enough assurance that everything will be alright.
☆彡～
Sehun came rushing to the doctor that just came out from the private room. His heart was beating wildly as he felt his pulse race. He wasn’t sure if he was ready to hear the findings of Luhan’s examination. “How was it, Doc?” He asked in an almost a whisper.
The doctor sighed and stared at him. “I’m sorry to say but Luhan has a tumor on his brain.”
Right then, Sehun felt like his knees has gotten weak as his heart leaped and dropped on the floor. “What …”
“It’s an abnormal swelling on any parts of the body. He got it on his brain.” The doctor stated. “Luckily though, it is just a benign. It is a kind of tumor that grows so ever slowly and it’s not cancerous. It can be removed by a surgery.”
Sehun nodded as he tried to grasp the reality that he was one. “But why does he keep on seeing things?”
“The tumor in his brain was making him see strange things. But the problem is that the tumor lies on his parietal lobe. That is the sire that governs our vision. That means the neurons there are the one that receives and processes the information being seen by the eyes. Because of the pressure made by the tumor, it distorted the processing of information.” The doctor explained. “For example, we see a chair, but he might see it as a book. But that doesn’t happen all the time.” He ended.
Is that why Luhan mistook him as Yixing? But strangely, it was for a long time. Luhan must have really loved Yixing that much …
A nurse came rushing to the doctor’s side saying there was an emergency on the other patient. Sehun was left alone as his mind tried to process of what’s going on. He decided to come inside Luhan’s room.
“Don’t treat me like an invalid person.” Luhan told him as he closed the door. He was standing near the window, vision far from reality.
“You are perfectly well.” He answered n a sweet tone. “You just need to have it removed.” He continued as he came to Luhan’s side, holding his hand tightly.
Luhan looked at him deeply on the eyes. “Don’t leave me again, Yixing.”
Sehun gulped and swallowed the lump that stayed on his throat. “I won’t.”
Yixing already left you - it is Sehun that stayed by you.
☆彡～
They were back to the apartment as if nothing happened. Sehun was very determined to convince Luhan to have his surgery sooner. Although it meant he would soon stop being with Luhan too…
“What do you want for dinner?” Luhan asked, smiling widely.
Sehun smiled back. “Pork ribs.” He answered.
“Okay, beef it is.”
He laughed it off and grabbed Luhan closer then hugged him tightly. “I love you.” He said it at last. He really meant it.
Luhan looked at him, wide-eyed. “This is the first time I heard you say that.” He remarked. “I love you too.” With that, he tiptoed and touched the other man’s lips with his tongue.
Sehun slid his tongue between Luhan’s lips and he grasps his shirt. Flames seemed to engulf him as he felt a searing heat blaze through every sinew of his body. He continued nibbling on Luhan’s mouth as the older guy started biting his lower lip. He pulled away and pouted.
“You have never kissed me like that.” Luhan commented mischievously. “I’ll prepare our dinner
first.”
☆彡～
“Wow! This is delicious!” Sehun commented as he tasted the soup.
“Wait ‘til you taste the main dish.” Luhan bragged like a kid.
“Heavenly,” he commented and it was the truth. The beef was so soft it melted inside his mouth. They continued eating like that when he noticed Luhan stayed staring at him. “Is there something wrong?” He asked.
“You’ve changed so much.” Luhan said.
Sehun almost choked from the food that stayed in his mouth. That’s because I’m not Yixing, he whispered. “People change.”
Smiling, Luhan nodded. “And I love you even more with the current you.”
That made Sehun’s pulse jump. Does that mean he loves the real Sehun? It was his turn to stare intently at Luhan. Luhan’s eyes twinkled with curiosity. “Luhan, the tumor has to go.”
Clearly, Luhan’s mood had changed.
Sehun stood up from his seat and went to Luhan’s back. Luhan looked at him over his shoulders. Wrapping his hands on Luhan, Sehun rested his chin on the older man’s head. “I just love you so much.” And with that, he lifted Luhan’s face and descended his lips on his. It was just so bitter yet so sweet.
Sehun then felt Luhan was staring something from his back.
“Wow.” Luhan exclaimed.
“What?”
“That’s a cute balloon.” Luhan praised. He blinked then sighed, “Never mind. I’m off to bed.” He then stood up and left from the kitchen.
With a sigh, Sehun stared at the back of Luhan. He was seeing things again.
☆彡～
Sehun knew one part of Luhan already knows that Yixing has walked out of his life. It is the tumor that is causing him to forget that. He started becoming selfish and hoped Luhan won’t undergo surgery but he loves the older guy too much he doesn’t want his life to be at stake.
He kept insisting about the surgery and Luhan kept saying soon. It was always like that. Luhan seemed like he doesn’t have any plans to have it removed.
Even now, Luhan planned for them both to have a vacation. He found himself agreeing.
Sehun started at the road in front of him. He was enjoying the moment with Luhan that talking isn’t even needed. They just both felt each other’s presence and loved it.
But Sehun noticed the car was running out of control.
“Luhan, what’s wrong?” He asked.
There was not even time for him to panic. Luhan’s car continued losing control, making it collide to the railing. It continued to skid as it reversed. There was a loud crash and then a deafening silence.
☆彡～
A light blinded Sehun as soon as he opened his eyes. He looked around and immediately got up. He felt his head stinging with pain but he ignored it. He was looking for Luhan.
“Doc, he’s awake.” The nurse said to the intercom.
After a while, the doctor came inside and checked him. He was perfectly fine.
“Where’s Luhan?” He asked immediately.
“The other guy with you? He’s still unconscious.” The doctor replied.
That made Sehun worry too much again. “Hopefully he’ll be fine. He has a tumor.”
The doctor gave him an understanding smile. “He’ll be fine. He might wake up sooner but I assure you he only got scratches too.”
A sigh of relief washed over him. He got up from his bed and slowly decided to go to Luhan’s private room.
☆彡～
Sehun had been staring at the face of sleeping Luhan. He didn’t leave his side. He should be there the moment Luhan would open his eyes.
His heart leaped as he noticed Luhan’s fingers started moving. With happiness all over his face,
he went back to staring Luhan’s.
Although Luhan didn’t open his eyes but Sehun stayed staring still.
“Sehun …” that faint whisper with a weak voice came out from the unconscious Luhan.
Tears started forming on Sehun’s eyes immediately. That was actually the every first time Luhan mentioned his name.
It was Sehun, not Yixing.
☆彡～
Sehun opened his eyes as he felt something tickling his ears. He was greeted with Luhan smiling at him and he got up immediately. “Luhan! I was so worried.” He said as he hugged the guy that was lying down on the bed.
“I know. I’m sorry.” Luhan answered and stared at him with guilt. “I’m going to undergo the operation as soon as possible.”
Sehun’s mouth was agape.
“I almost lost you because of my stubbornness. I thought I can manage for just a few months more. Now I have to face the fact that I’m useless as long as it is still lodged in my brain.”
“You are not useless.” He insisted. “But I just want you to get well.”
“I know,” Luhan smiled.
And then their lips met as Luhan pulled him closer.
☆彡～
He had been pacing along the corridor. Luhan had been on the operation table for four hours now. He was starting to get every worried.
Then the surgeon went out from the double doors. He removed his mask and cover on his head when he went closer to Sehun.
“How is he?” Sehun asked.
“It was a success. But to make sure, let’s wait until the patient wakes up.”
He heaved a sigh of relief. He had gone weak and he realized how tired he was.
☆彡～
Luhan had already been transferred to the recovery room. They still have to wait for hours until the sedatives will be out from his system. When Sehun went inside, Luhan was still groggy.
Tears started forming on his eyes as he stared at Luhan. Right then, he felt how short the time he shared with Luhan was.
“I’m going to miss you,” he whispered as he caressed Luhan’s cheek. He couldn’t stop himself; he planted a kiss on the older guy’s lips.
Suddenly, the door opened. The nurse came in and gave him an apologetic smile.
Luhan’s eyelids fluttered open. And this time, when he opened his eyes, they remained open. It wasn’t like before that he goes back to sleeping again. This time, he was really conscious.
Luhan looked around until both their eyes met.
There were no signs of recognition from Luhan’s eyes.
With a heavy heart, Sehun slowly backed away.
That was the right time he needed to go. He realized he needed to move out from Luhan’s place. He needs to go back to his own life.
After closing the door gently, Sehun let out the tears he had been trying to hold in. With a sob, he turned and fled through the corridor.
☆彡～
It was funny how the mind stretched time. He felt as if he had known Luhan all his life even though it was only for a short period of time being with him.
He remembered how happy they were at Luhan’s apartment. And it pained him to think he would probably never set foot on that place again.
He started dancing slowly from the music that came from his headphones as he wrapped his hands on the cold plastic cup of his bubble tea, as if it was the only thing comforting him.
That was the place he first met Luhan. The thought was like a knife twisting his gut - as he realized how much he loved him.
He had always been weak. He blinked back the tears that start forming on his eyes that made his vision blurry. He removed his headphones; and he felt his heart falling from about ten feet.
Luhan was staring at him, eyes screaming with curiosity.
“Have we met before? I just have this vague memory of this place and I’m pretty sure I’ve seen your face …” Luhan asked politely.
You kissed me here, remember? Sehun’s mind screamed with longing.
“No.” He simply answered. He then stood up and went outside the shop, leaving his bubble tea on his table.
Luhan looked at the back of the stranger that was walking away. He inhaled that familiar scent
and a smile formed on his lips. That sure brought him a good feeling. He cocked his head to the side and paused for a while.
Never mind. He just couldn’t remember anything.
☆彡～
Sehun continued walking lazily as he stayed looking at the ground with his heavy heart.
Everything that happened between him and Luhan was just like a dream.
Just like a dream, Luhan came to his life…
Just like a dream, Luhan was gone.
He heaved a deep breathe.
终有一天我们也会从梦中醒来，回到现实。
One day we will still wake up from our dreams, returning to reality.
-- Part I
A/N: It has been so long since I wrote a fic and LJ's such a bitch to me. Nah, I hope this fic's just fine or something. This is inspired by a novel that I read but I forgot the title. I'll just re-edit this. tch.
Thank you for reading. ♥