nobody's lost but nobody wins
Supernatural
Anabiosis by whereupon
Dean has to be invulnerable and inhuman and strong enough for the both of them; he has to be everything that Sam is not, he has to be brave so that Sam can be scared, and sane so that Sam can go crazy sometimes. It's a perfectly logical idea, when you're four or six or ten years old and your brother is all you know of heroism, all you know of what makes sense in the world. At twenty-three, when you know what maintaining that illusion has cost him, and continues to cost him, continuing to believe it is at once cruel and the only thing you can do, because he's built his entire world upon it. He believes in it, too, and it'll kill him, that he isn't. That he can't be. That no one, ever, could be. Utterly gorgeous and bleak casefile set between Nightshifter and BUaBS.
Black Dog on My Shoulder Again by sophiap
Sam deals with a hunt at Stanford that only cements his desire to leave the hunting life behind. Oh, Sam... Works in the revelations from s5 naturally and heartbreakingly, as well.
Embers of an Autumn Fire by caffienekitty
Sweet, nicely characterized AU where Sam and Dean don't grow up hunting, but it finds them, nonetheless. I really liked how very much themselves they were in this.
Fightin' Words by sophiap
A catalogue of some of the more...embarrassing incidents Sam and Dean have faced while hunting. Hilarious.
one way of looking at it by theredfeather
Jo also isn't the kind of girl Sam's used to meeting at Stanford. She wears thrift-store tank tops under old flannel shirts and workman's boots worn thin with real use, not bright patterned shirts or sparkling jewelry. There's dirt under her fingernails more often than not and she's got a vaguely Midwestern accent like his, which is strangely rare here. Stanford may have students from all over the country (and the world, for that matter), but the heartland of America isn't always particularly well-represented. She knows how to hustle and steal and use her innocent good looks to wheedle and while what she wants out of the generally unsuspecting public for fun and profit. This, she explains to him, is what she was doing when they met at the bar. She's pretty and smart and an anthropology major and keeps a box full of knives tucked under a false bottom in one of her desk drawers. AU where Jo and Sam meet and fall in love at Stanford. Very cool
the places you will be from by paxlux
"Dude, seriously, without me, you'd be stuck on some half-assed road without a damn clue which way is north. Even if you had a compass rose tattooed on your ass."
"Uh, already stuck on some half-assed road and you're here," Dean points out, slapping Sam's leg. "And if I had a compass rose on my ass, I wouldn't be able to see it anyway, Sam. Unless I had a mirror and-"
Sam smacks his brother upside the head with something heavy. "Oops, thought that was the map." This story starts out with some fine brotherly hilarity and then BAM! it slams you in the gut with gorgeous heartbreak. Have a tissue handy.
Second Map of the World by candle_beck
Sam glanced at his brother. Dean was snuffling in his sleep, pushing the back of his hand across his nose. Sam had underestimated Dean's general devotion, or possibly overestimated his moral code. Sam had forgotten that the list of Dean's priorities was brutally short, and keeping Sam with him was at the top, in bold and underlined and circled a dozen times. Dean would tolerate almost anything to maintain the fragile remains of his family, and there was the operative word, family--it had come to mean different things to the two of them. Different definitions.
It wasn't a new piece of knowledge, Sam's awareness that Dean was and always had been a much better person than he was. Always a step behind, Sam was, always keeping one eye out for himself. There was a lovely kind of self-absorbed self-destruction in wanting only the things he couldn't have. He was trying to do better, though. Awesomely lovely - full of UST, with a great pining, freaked-out Sam POV. (Wincest)
she's a real time girl (in my imaginary world) by lazy_daze
During "Changing Channels," the Trickster zaps Sam and Dean into a lesbian porno. As the stars. They must, of course, play their roles. Ridiculously, amazingly hot. (Wincest)
You Say the Dead Need No Physician by kitsune13
Really lovely post-s5 Wincest tied up with an interesting and nicely parallel casefile.
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Anabiosis by whereupon
Dean has to be invulnerable and inhuman and strong enough for the both of them; he has to be everything that Sam is not, he has to be brave so that Sam can be scared, and sane so that Sam can go crazy sometimes. It's a perfectly logical idea, when you're four or six or ten years old and your brother is all you know of heroism, all you know of what makes sense in the world. At twenty-three, when you know what maintaining that illusion has cost him, and continues to cost him, continuing to believe it is at once cruel and the only thing you can do, because he's built his entire world upon it. He believes in it, too, and it'll kill him, that he isn't. That he can't be. That no one, ever, could be. Utterly gorgeous and bleak casefile set between Nightshifter and BUaBS.
Black Dog on My Shoulder Again by sophiap
Sam deals with a hunt at Stanford that only cements his desire to leave the hunting life behind. Oh, Sam... Works in the revelations from s5 naturally and heartbreakingly, as well.
Embers of an Autumn Fire by caffienekitty
Sweet, nicely characterized AU where Sam and Dean don't grow up hunting, but it finds them, nonetheless. I really liked how very much themselves they were in this.
Fightin' Words by sophiap
A catalogue of some of the more...embarrassing incidents Sam and Dean have faced while hunting. Hilarious.
one way of looking at it by theredfeather
Jo also isn't the kind of girl Sam's used to meeting at Stanford. She wears thrift-store tank tops under old flannel shirts and workman's boots worn thin with real use, not bright patterned shirts or sparkling jewelry. There's dirt under her fingernails more often than not and she's got a vaguely Midwestern accent like his, which is strangely rare here. Stanford may have students from all over the country (and the world, for that matter), but the heartland of America isn't always particularly well-represented. She knows how to hustle and steal and use her innocent good looks to wheedle and while what she wants out of the generally unsuspecting public for fun and profit. This, she explains to him, is what she was doing when they met at the bar. She's pretty and smart and an anthropology major and keeps a box full of knives tucked under a false bottom in one of her desk drawers. AU where Jo and Sam meet and fall in love at Stanford. Very cool
the places you will be from by paxlux
"Dude, seriously, without me, you'd be stuck on some half-assed road without a damn clue which way is north. Even if you had a compass rose tattooed on your ass."
"Uh, already stuck on some half-assed road and you're here," Dean points out, slapping Sam's leg. "And if I had a compass rose on my ass, I wouldn't be able to see it anyway, Sam. Unless I had a mirror and-"
Sam smacks his brother upside the head with something heavy. "Oops, thought that was the map." This story starts out with some fine brotherly hilarity and then BAM! it slams you in the gut with gorgeous heartbreak. Have a tissue handy.
Second Map of the World by candle_beck
Sam glanced at his brother. Dean was snuffling in his sleep, pushing the back of his hand across his nose. Sam had underestimated Dean's general devotion, or possibly overestimated his moral code. Sam had forgotten that the list of Dean's priorities was brutally short, and keeping Sam with him was at the top, in bold and underlined and circled a dozen times. Dean would tolerate almost anything to maintain the fragile remains of his family, and there was the operative word, family--it had come to mean different things to the two of them. Different definitions.
It wasn't a new piece of knowledge, Sam's awareness that Dean was and always had been a much better person than he was. Always a step behind, Sam was, always keeping one eye out for himself. There was a lovely kind of self-absorbed self-destruction in wanting only the things he couldn't have. He was trying to do better, though. Awesomely lovely - full of UST, with a great pining, freaked-out Sam POV. (Wincest)
she's a real time girl (in my imaginary world) by lazy_daze
During "Changing Channels," the Trickster zaps Sam and Dean into a lesbian porno. As the stars. They must, of course, play their roles. Ridiculously, amazingly hot. (Wincest)
You Say the Dead Need No Physician by kitsune13
Really lovely post-s5 Wincest tied up with an interesting and nicely parallel casefile.
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