remember when you were pretending that you were some celebrity [pete wentz, i think. im pretty foggy on the details at this point] to some girl on aim? you kept posting conversations with her here in your lj and mocking her and leading her along. anyway, remember how someone told her that you werent really who you said you were and ratted you out? that was me. it wasnt the peengate mole or whoever you thought it was. it was me. i think youre absolutely fab most of the time, but i thought that was pretty mean, and i couldnt stay quiet. youll probably never know who i am, and i am sorry for ratting you out like that, but ive had stuff like that done to me in the past and this was the one thing youve done that in my opinion was really mean. ily though. sorry. :(
I don't want to fuck with you. And yeah, that was assholish. I don't know either. I'm sorry. I'll go back to my world now and I hope you keep moving on with yours.
See, you can't do that. I don't care if this was a secrets post. I need to know who you are. If you really don't know, well. I've been through hell the past year and some months from not hearing from him. I can't stop dreaming about him and when I wake up, I expect him to be around again. I have NO idea what happened, and considering how completely in love with him I was (still am.. I don't think I'll ever love somebody like him), I've just been a total mess.
I need to know who you are. Because if you don't tell me, it's going to make it harder for me. I wish I could put into words for you, whoever you are, how my heart has felt like it has been ripped to pieces. If you don't tell me, I'm going to assume you = Sam. And to assume that, means I feel as if you were here, and then gone again. Whoever you are, you can't do that to me. You just can't.
i'm the pica kid from LJSecret.
anonymous
July 8 2007, 03:06:38 UTC
i comment here because i don't think LJ alerts you your comment's been responded to unless it's in your own entry. maybe i'm wrong, hurf. anyway, haysup.
well, like i said, i crave paper the same way i crave like, chocolate when i'm on my period, exact same feeling. it was called PICA to me by my shrink. maybe the people who tell you PICA-ers don't realize what they want isn't proper food were right, haha. my shrink's a social worker, not an "official" shrink or whatever. so it's possible she's wrong.
also worth noting, i like certain "types" of paper more than others. like, my favorite is newspaper paper, thinnish book paper, and notebook paper. i never eat things like tissues, toilet paper, paper towels, etc. because I don't like the texture.
i'll check back to see if you responded in the event you have any more questions/comments. :]
Re: i'm the pica kid from LJSecret.unconventionalJuly 8 2007, 03:35:19 UTC
I work with the developmentally disabled so things are always described/worded different, I guess, and my trainers were just dumb and made it sound like those with PICA don't know what they're doing. I'm really kind of fascinated by it though, just because I think there's only one person in my company with PICA, and we don't interact, and it's really interesting to talk to someone that has it.
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And sexually intermingles with other woman
She likes alternative music
And goth
.. shes so conventional
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Twisting faster as I care now
I can feel you running from me
Because I sense myself in you
What ever happened to Sam?
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Tell me who this is. Because seriously, this will just fuck with me as I'm starting to get over him.
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I need to know who you are. Because if you don't tell me, it's going to make it harder for me. I wish I could put into words for you, whoever you are, how my heart has felt like it has been ripped to pieces. If you don't tell me, I'm going to assume you = Sam. And to assume that, means I feel as if you were here, and then gone again. Whoever you are, you can't do that to me. You just can't.
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well, like i said, i crave paper the same way i crave like, chocolate when i'm on my period, exact same feeling. it was called PICA to me by my shrink. maybe the people who tell you PICA-ers don't realize what they want isn't proper food were right, haha. my shrink's a social worker, not an "official" shrink or whatever. so it's possible she's wrong.
also worth noting, i like certain "types" of paper more than others. like, my favorite is newspaper paper, thinnish book paper, and notebook paper. i never eat things like tissues, toilet paper, paper towels, etc. because I don't like the texture.
i'll check back to see if you responded in the event you have any more questions/comments. :]
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