this is for terra ( Read more... )

love lto post longer but my mos pissed off at me and coming to get me. {love}

firstly i would like to address one little issue. it is my policy to give most people the benefit of the doubt even if they have sucessively screwed me over. unfortunately some people have pushed me over the edge of my patience. one person in particular has done just that recently. if you cant guess who that is its terra. i was trying to be patient ( Read more... )

i feel like total shit right now. i didn't sleep last night on account of the drugs and i haven't eaten since yesterday. i just want to pass out but if i fall asleep now then i'll be up all of tonight then i'll be completely fucked for skool tomorrow. which means today is just a totally fucked day. i can't function at all. it feels like i'm trying ( Read more... )

well,if you all haven't heard im single now. i could go off on a huge rant about how much i hate terra but i dont im just very hurt and saddened. even though i saw this coming when terra started talking about being attracted to sean. she did the exact same thing with jon and i. ill spell it out for those not insightful enoughto have seen it like i ( Read more... )

'teach me to broken, teach me to be dead, i scream for hours, all alone with the voices in my head, filled with hate and so damn cold, in my fury i break the mold, one of a kind, so disturbed, killing machine within my mind, fucking daggers in my spine, you murder me more everyday, it is your only way, you frigid bitch, i will strip the flesh from ( Read more... )

reading through all of my recent entries i have come to that conclusion. i think that i need skool now more than ever not to learn but to be around all of my loved/hated ones. just so that i can get a hug everyday and feel better. also so that i can see you all frequently. damn im emo must be that time again. if you dont know what im talking about ( Read more... )

will someone please comment on my lj, im starting to think that the only voices are the ones in my head. {crickets chirping} [love]

ive come to the conclusion that even though i could not have asked for a better life or more loving friends i hate all of you and all of this. my life sucks and i just feel like killing something, even though that would just make my life worse it would make me happy for the space of a blink. if slitting my wrists would make me happy i would do it, ( Read more... )

carrie dear, since you wont let me comment on your post ive decided to make an entry of this. i know that you dont want to hear everyones thoughts but when you bear your soul like that on lj , please dont expect the people who love you and care not to try and help. these are simply my thoughts so interpret them however you want to. you can even ( Read more... )