approaching the 120's

[uglyfatty1]

Hey! I woke up today to a plesant surprise 132.5 yes! and not to be gross, but after I weighed myself I drank a large cup of tea, and then I had to "go". I couldn't tell the exact loss because of the weight of the water from the tea but I am guessing it would at least get me to 132 flat. I just went and knocked on some wood. I am scared I'll stop

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[uglyfatty1]

sometimes I think that I need to loose weight to "protect" the weight I already lost by giving me some breathing room to gain a little if I have to, but then once I lose instead of giving myself that breathing room I'd hoped for I feel scared to gain that back and want to lose to get a little more "breathing room" for that weight so I keep wanting lower and lower. Yeah sometimes I choose what I will eat based on its physical weight (not solely, put in part) I'm afraid heavy things like bread vs a peice of hard candy that is light. even if the hard cany is 20 cals and the bread is 30... not much of a difference but the bread seems like it will be "heavier" my heads so screwed up.

[secretlyaloud]

hey, great job!!
i def. know what you mean.
this morning i was 153. my new lowest. but its like my body always wants to weight 155. so its like it goes right back to that no matter if i eat 5 cals or 500 cals.
lower weight makes me more anxious too but also much more excited.
good day!

[uglyfatty1]

exactly!

[use_less_]

i'm petrified of gaining back and when i do i cry... when i was in recovery a few years ago i refused to look at the numbers when i got weighed at the doctor because i didn't want to cry infront of them. i didn't step on a scale afterwards for almost a year nd a bit because i couldn't bear to see what it read.
but like you i can't wait to be back in the 120s :)