Oh boy. Haven't updated. Life is a bitch. So, what has happened recently? Hmm...graduation is numba ONE on my list. I can't wait to get out of my fucking house. My mom drives me nuts
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update. wOotness! trusting people is so difficult.i dont trust most people anymore, even tho i am such a social butterfly XD i trusted someone earlier this year and opened up to them but our relationship got all screwed up.shit went down and now it feels like my hearts been ripped out and stepped on repeatedly. maybe i'll fill u in on the particulars later. thats a big issue wit me and my boi right now. since we havent seen each other in a long time all the trust we had is gone.
dont go and kill urself now. im already paranoid about him slashing his wrists during the night. damn u peeps r gonna give me an ulcer.
ive been telling people this all year. dont stress this crap. u have it better than all of us. ur a senior. this is almost over for u and u never have to see any of us ever again. life will go on after hs
Ahh, it's been a long time since I've trusted anyone. Comes with the lifestyle, yo. It just isn't safe to trust people anymore. Trust died with decency, chivalry and dancing. ^^
And stress...well, the only thing I can say is not to do it. I'm never stressed because I make a conscious effort not to let things get to me. If I didn't I'd be more mental than I already am. The trick is to let things go. I've had some challenges in that department lately - I gotta admit, the past *cough* five months *cough* haven't been as dandy as I hoped they would, but I'm gradually working myself out of that. Even though that doesn't work. I'm an advocate of the cold-turkey method.
And as for God...Spoo recieves messages from him daily and if she ever tells you what God wants you to do, shut up and do it. XDD I regret not listening to her on one particular occasion...I'm sure you'd not approve but the matter still stands, Spoo's the spokesperson for God Herself.
Really, she's a messenger of God? Thats amazing. I've had several messages from Him/Her...some that only came under weak constitution (I went to sleep drunk) Let me tell you, I've had some messed up dreams. One of them changed my life...ever heard of Indigo Children?
Other than that, I used to have alot of Deja Vu's...not recently, though. Man, where's a smirnoff when you need one :p
yay for graduation! that's the best part of senior year. i couldn't wait to get out of my parent's house, but then it turned out to be almost the same for me because i'm so close. it sucks so bad sometimes and i wish i'd moved to a different city. all the time. hahaha. anyway, that sucks about your bad dreams and having a baby sitter, but at least you have that new snazzy orange controller. and speaking of the devil...
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The guitar solo...hmm. Let me explain. See, I was ina a good mood at the moment, and when I'm happy, or experience a victory of some sort, i hear this victory music in my head. Think of Spoo's victory dance mixed in a video game, when you beat a boss. It's something like that, and it comes out in a 5 second solo. If you've played MegaMan or Castlevania, you'd understand. The reason I asked YOU for a solo is because I wanted to share the joy, in a way. See what I mean?
And thank you and everyone else for understanding my dilemas *bows*. I'll be updating Wednesday night after the senior retreat. I'll talk about EVERYTHING ;)
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trusting people is so difficult.i dont trust most people anymore, even tho i am such a social butterfly XD i trusted someone earlier this year and opened up to them but our relationship got all screwed up.shit went down and now it feels like my hearts been ripped out and stepped on repeatedly. maybe i'll fill u in on the particulars later.
thats a big issue wit me and my boi right now. since we havent seen each other in a long time all the trust we had is gone.
dont go and kill urself now. im already paranoid about him slashing his wrists during the night. damn u peeps r gonna give me an ulcer.
ive been telling people this all year. dont stress this crap. u have it better than all of us. ur a senior. this is almost over for u and u never have to see any of us ever again. life will go on after hs
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And stress...well, the only thing I can say is not to do it. I'm never stressed because I make a conscious effort not to let things get to me. If I didn't I'd be more mental than I already am. The trick is to let things go. I've had some challenges in that department lately - I gotta admit, the past *cough* five months *cough* haven't been as dandy as I hoped they would, but I'm gradually working myself out of that. Even though that doesn't work. I'm an advocate of the cold-turkey method.
And as for God...Spoo recieves messages from him daily and if she ever tells you what God wants you to do, shut up and do it. XDD I regret not listening to her on one particular occasion...I'm sure you'd not approve but the matter still stands, Spoo's the spokesperson for God Herself.
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Other than that, I used to have alot of Deja Vu's...not recently, though. Man, where's a smirnoff when you need one :p
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I'm t3h queen of deja vu...also, I'll randomly write something and it'll happen. XD I blame my dumbass biorhythms.
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We've got money in the same damn poker game, my friend. It is vital that you don't give in. Stay in the fight. I'm cheering for you all the way.
And WTF was the random guitar solo for? Please don't bastardize my Zep. XDD
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And thank you and everyone else for understanding my dilemas *bows*. I'll be updating Wednesday night after the senior retreat. I'll talk about EVERYTHING ;)
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*Castlevania music plays over random loudspeakers, and morphs into "Don't Fear the Reaper."*
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