17. mai!

[tyblazitar]

I had a pretty good day, really. Ate ice cream and watched the parade, before a Japani-BBQ-thingie. Many nice people, I had a great time, really. A bit cold, but all in all a very successful 17th of May. I got to talk to people I haven't really talked much to, and talked more with people I like talking to

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[anonymous]

Whatever you do, stop being so mean when we're in large groups. I really wasn't in the mood for that yesterday, and when someone starts, everyone else follows. It made me feel a little down, but nothing to serious.

Like you mentioned, perhaps what you need now is a few, good friends. I recognize a bit of myself in what you say. Large gatherings are a bit scary sometimes, depending on what kind of gathering (even though I need waaay more people than yesterday to make me feel insecure and whatnot - no offense.) I also prefer having a nice, long conversation with a few good friends than lots of rambling with a large group (not saying yesterday was boring though.)

Anyways, I'm confident you'll get over it, as I think that you're good at exploring and naming you're own feelings, which helped me a lot this winter. Also, you're a good person.

Big G

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[tyblazitar]

I'm really sorry about that, I felt pretty bad afterwards, when I realized that I'd overdid it a lot. That's one of the sides of me I really hate and try to hide, but something made it come out on Saturday. I hope you know that it was all meant in jest, though. (I'm not trying to explain myself, just need to make sure you don't think I was being really serious.)

And yeah, I guess I'll get over it, like always. Yay, now I feel helpful, thanks! (I have no idea how something I said or did this winter could've helped you, but whatever. :cip:)

"Also, you're a good person."

NO U!

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[anonymous]

Yeah, I know it was all just for fun, and I'm not really one to yell at you (not just you, the whole gang) as I can be overly sarcastic too.

Anyway, no hard feelings, as I know you're not really serious. Besides, me being late all the time is part of the charm : D

[anonymous]

You can visit me anytime. Just know that. (I think you do.) :D

Uhm. You're not alone, getting emo easily when you're tired. I'm like that too. I like to be in large groups from time to time, but the thing I really enjoy is spending time with a couple of good friends at home, chilling, or go out someplace that's not too noisy. Because of that I easily get reserved from time to time when I've been around a lot of people over a short period of time.

Just poke me on msn anytime. I'm at home most of the time I'm not working, so if you want to talk just poke me. =)

-T

[tyblazitar]

Well, I would, but for geographic reasons, you're not the easiest to just spontaneously visiting. ;(

Like Easter! That was awesome!

I'll attempt to overcome my poke-phobia and poke you more. ;O

[anonymous]

<3

Visit in a weekend or something. ;D

[heika_sama]

When I'm in groups I tend just to sit and listen to the others talk, because I never feel like I have to add. Unless I know the people really well, that is. People at work say I'm so quiet they almost forget I'm there. ;P

There's nothing wrong in preferring smaller groups, I think most people do. :3 And I think you'll get more and more secure as time goes by, just hang in there! /o/ I'm certain you're not as bad as you think anyway.

Matkveld! I'm looking forward to it. n_n There were alot of people I didn't know there last time. Need moar familiar faces!

Oh, Iron Man. Good movie. :3

[tyblazitar]

I used to have some of that as well, but my problem now is that I feel that I need to talk a lot, and end up saying lots of stupid stuff that I regret. WTB golden middleroad.

Judging by the comments to this entry, it really seems that most people prefer small groups, yes. :cip: But it's more that I can't function properly in larger groups, and I get all mean and meh.

Yay, matkveld! I'm sure you know a lot more people than me, though. Oh well, it'll be awesome regardless. I haven't been in Oslo for way too long. I should probably order new Nekonyanbous as well. 8)

I have yet to hear anyone say anything bad about Iron Man, so I fear that my expectations are maybe too high. :cip:

[heika_sama]

Ah, the golden middleroad. I think that as long as you are aware of it, you just have to stay alert and stop yourself when you find you're getting mean. As long as you know your problems you're already halfway! ;D Faito! Dayo?

Hihi, maybe, but I'm more shy that you. ;O But, yay, will be phun. 8) Nekonyanbouuuu~ /o/

Well, Iron Man is GOOD, but not AWESOME. So don't have too high expectations. :3

[tyblazitar]

そうですね。

There can never be enough Nekonyanbou. :3

*lowers Iron Man-expectations a tad*

[dragseth]

I like meeting people when they're few, but when they're many, I get more uncomfortable.
I know. It's shit. Got the same problem. Small groups of good friends is awesum.

[tyblazitar]

/agree :D

[nazguruloki]

I remember the things you say.

This insecurity is not constant, not something that's inherent in you. It's merely a product of your confidence and your mood, and those two things are also connected.

With years of practice, you can learn to master it. But you'll need something to help you. Something in the world that you can use as a guide, to clear your thoughts. Personally, I use nature.

Of course, you'll also have to master the art that is social situations. But you'll have to try real hard to not learn that. :P

[tyblazitar]

Both my confidence and my mood are very varying these days, so that may be the reason, yes.

I will search for something to guide me and grind social xp. :3