ugh. i'm so irritated. it is really stupid that i am irritated, but i am. and of course it has to do with chris. he is the ONLY drama in my life. i really just need to say my goodbyes for real this time because he is no good for me. even as a friend. i was extremely weak and lonely and probably a bit jealous when i was saying that i wanted him back ( Read more... )

disregard me last post. i gave into a moment of weakness and lonliness.

so i've been doing a lot of thinking... and a lot of crying. i have realized that i made a huge mistake by breaking up with chris. i mean it's been good for me cuz i've been able to focus on myself and my faith, but i still love him so much and he loves me too, but he has a girlfriend..... however i just found out that his girlfriend is going to be ( Read more... )

so... i know i am always back and forth when it comes to chris. i just feel like i will never not love him. he has a girlfriend now, and he wants to see me. so i'm going to see him probably tomorrow. but i told him that his gf would probably not like him seeing me. he basically said that he doesn't care. i'm excited to see him, and excited to see ( Read more... )

so i've always kinda been the type of person that waits for others to call me to hang out rather than just calling them. this is a problem a lot of the time. there is a guy that i used to like that i haven't seen in months and i really miss him. he has a gf now so it's not like anything would happen, we would just hang out. i've only hung out with ( Read more... )

I kicked Chris out of my life permanently. Through an email... haha. he didn't accept it. he said that he is going to be in my life and if i don't want to see him for a while then he he will let that happen, but it's not going to be permanent. he said (last week) that he would call me on wednesday and that we need to get together and talk to him, ( Read more... )

so i saw chris. we kissed. i found myself longing for the comfort that i once had in his arms and then once i got it, i didn't want to leave. there were times when he was talking and it wasn't even anything funny or appropriate to smile at and i had a huge grin on my face. anytime i see him after a while i just have this huge, uncontrollable smile ( Read more... )

so i just talked to chris and he's gone on a couple of dates since we've broken up and he made out with some girl. he said it didn't feel right when he was kissing her and he kept telling me he didn't want to talk about it, but i pried out some info from him. I told him that it's clear that he's moved on and he said he hasn't. making out with ( Read more... )

chris and I have been broken up for like 4 months now. i was really bad and checked his voicemail today (cuz i know his password) and he had a message from some girl saying she wanted to talk to him before she went to bed. it sounded like they are kinda talking to each other. it's so weird, the conflict inside of me. I don't want to be with chris ( Read more... )

i really feel like i can't get away from chris. i try to fight my feelings for him, but i find myself falling deeper for him. i can't even explain what it is that i feel, but i just need to talk to him, i think about him a lot and just knowing that we have a special friendship makes me feel so fortunate. i can't let him go, i just want to hang on ( Read more... )