i feel as if my life hasnt even started yet... for the last 5 or so years ive been waiting for something, something big to happen, and i do not know what it is, and i dont know what more i could ask for.
at the age of 19 i am currently working 2 jobs, one full time receiving full benefits, the other just for extra money; i have earned my cosmetology license; just about to get enrolled to MSU for a degree for forensic pathology. and i still want more, but still feel i have not done anything with my life yet, unfulfilled if you will. and you stop and think..how many other 19yr old lives' are like mine, not too many.
i sometimes dont know what it is i am after. i feel as if i am one of those that will never be satisfied. i do not like this, so running out of life or just beginning it, still has that negative apathy.
well, youre doing far better than a lot of other 19yr olds..even some 25 year olds i know.. and at this rate, lets say 60 years from now, id say you might be able to say youve lived a fulfilled life.. but now youre only 19. your thirst for life is admirable. in order to get more out of life, you have to want it first, right? so at least youre on the right track. unfortunatly for me, i dont think what i want from life is earthly attainable.. we'll see.. maybe ill be able to witness the end of civilization... until then.. ill just have to settle for indepth conversations and some nice ppl to keep me from going crazy..
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for the last 5 or so years ive been waiting for something, something big to happen, and i do not know what it is, and i dont know what more i could ask for.
at the age of 19 i am currently working 2 jobs, one full time receiving full benefits, the other just for extra money; i have earned my cosmetology license; just about to get enrolled to MSU for a degree for forensic pathology. and i still want more, but still feel i have not done anything with my life yet, unfulfilled if you will. and you stop and think..how many other 19yr old lives' are like mine, not too many.
i sometimes dont know what it is i am after. i feel as if i am one of those that will never be satisfied. i do not like this, so running out of life or just beginning it, still has that negative apathy.
~K
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your thirst for life is admirable. in order to get more out of life, you have to want it first, right? so at least youre on the right track.
unfortunatly for me, i dont think what i want from life is earthly attainable.. we'll see.. maybe ill be able to witness the end of civilization... until then.. ill just have to settle for indepth conversations and some nice ppl to keep me from going crazy..
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