"Skinny"

[trying2recover]

So I got called skinny twice today - once by a manager at work and the second time by my brother’s girlfriend. It felt good, but I still feel so FAT.

I drank tonight - about 3 rum and diet cokes; I looked up calories online, but I don’t know the exact amount, seeing as how I just poured the rum from the bottle into the cup - so I have no idea how

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[trying2recover]

Well, according to the online BMI calculator that I use (which I'm assuming is pretty accurate), I am within a "normal" weight range.

"Normal" BMI is considered to be between 18.5-24.9, and right now my BMI is 21; it ranges daily, though, since my weight fluctuates so much.

Ideally I'd like it to be between 18.3 and 19.1.

[love_war_snow]

I really don't like this path you're headed down. I wish there was something I could say to make you stop but I know there isn't. I'm glad you have a loving, supportive boyfriend. Mine is like my anchor and without it I'd surely float out to sea. I will most certainly NOT support your cutting and I hope no one else does either.

[trying2recover]

I still haven't cut - today is day 432. It has been EXTREMELY hard lately. Sometimes I feel like I just can't bare it. I actually went to my mother earlier just crying and telling her I didn't feel safe alone. I'm glad I did that. She showed me cute videos of babies and made me smile.