So, I was with Katrina for about 1.8 years.. over that time, we got used to eachother, and take care of eachother.. one such thing is that I am borderline diabetic, so she would stuff food in me once a day, so that I didn't keel over and die ( Read more... )

Mornings and dreams suck. End of story.

It feels like it's been months, but in reality it's only been a couple weeks. I feel much better, and I feel like i've grown quite a bit. I also feel a bit like an old man.

I'm over it, I realise this is for the best, but it's hard to lose anyone you've been that close to.

Anyone know of a position open where they work? I don't care what I'm doing, I simply need a job.. very, VERY badly. Don't care about appearance requirements, anything, honestly. anything.

Mornings are the worst. I just had every sort of dirty dream imaginable, and woke up alone.. I think I just went crazy.

So, an entire day of being useless. Yay. That feels horrible. kind of like I should hate myself for it, infact.

I've decided. I just hope that I will have the will to stick with it ( Read more... )

O WTF I just realized that I don't know ANYONE that doesn't know her. That's.. Fucking wrong. Even my friends from grade school.

To anyone who's ever been dumped by someone they love.. how do you get through the day? I can't... seem to let time pass without thinking about her. screaming at myself for making such huge mistakes. I hate myself for it, I don't think i'll ever be that happy again.

Tonight, after about four shots, I went out for a walk (11:pm) I found trina's car infront of chad's house. I asked her to talk to me.. repeatedly.. I couldn't force myself away from the house. I tried. After about 30 minutes, she came out.. and we spoke.. she told me that if my life is going well in a year.. maybe.. I say BS. In a year she'll ( Read more... )