Title: Oblivious (aka: ‘Don’t Go Breaking My Heart’ remix)
Author: truelyesoteric
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: Jensen and Jared
Warnings: Boys on boys.
Spoilers: For most interviews. Twizzlers. Schmoopie
Disclaimer: I don’t own them. Damn I wish that I did. I would never leave my house.
Word Count: 2000+
Summary: For some reason I heard Elton John doing ‘Don’t Go Breaking My Heart’ and suddenly I thought that there was something there. I needed J2 fic because the wank was annoying me.
Don't go breaking my heart
I couldn't if I tried
*
Jensen prided himself on being bulletproof. He'd been in the business in some form since he could walk. This was his job. He gave it everything that he had and never held back for the next take. He always had faith that there would be something else left.
He knew his craft.
He didn't really pal around with his co-stars, he definitely didn't date them. This was work, plain and simple. He absorbed whatever he could and left the rest.
When the Days divas started to bitch about storylines he didn't join in the hour-long sessions of negativity. When Michael and Jessica started counting lines and complaining when Alec had more lines, he left the frustration at work.
He didn't let those people who he spent all day emoting with get under his skin. He couldn't.
**
Honey if I get restless
Baby you're not that kind
*
Jared cringed inwardly when people described him as loyal, it made him feel like the puppy you kick to the curb and keeps coming back for more abuse. However he never said anything because it was true.
He had gotten in the business old enough to know better and still too young to care. ‘Gilmore Girls’ had been his kindergarten and ‘New York Minute’ had been his college experience. He had been set free on the world and he ate it up. It was fun for him.
He pretty much kept in touch with everybody. He called Alexis on her birthday, he hung out with Chad whenever their schedules coincided, he called Milo whenever he ate Taco Bell just to replay 'that time', and he even occasionally would get calls from Mary-Kate when she needed a laugh.
You could count on him. He was there for everyone. He gave everything to everybody and never seemed to loose himself.
**
Don't go breaking my heart
You take the weight off me
*
Fourteen hour days six days a week were a little unexpected, not a shock seeing as there was only two of them, but still a little more than they were used to, ever.
It was exhausting.
Jensen and Jared were together as much as conjoined twins. It happened often that they forgot where on person began and the other ended.
Jared would bring Jensen his black coffee when he went on his hourly raids of craft services and Jensen would pick up Jared's phone from where ever he left it this time.
When Jensen was tired or cranky Jared would be there as large as life eclipsing Jensen so nobody could see his mood. When Jared was tired and couldn't hit his mark Jensen would be able to tilt and to make it unnoticeable.
And the interviews. From Paley onward they learned that they played off each other. Jared would be remarkably silly when a question got too personal for Jensen and Jensen would guide Jared back into something like sense.
So the fourteen-hour days six days a week were exhausting, but it wasn't hard. There were two of them.
**
Honey when you knock on my door
I gave you my key
*
Jensen feeds the dogs when Jared jaunts down to see Sandy, Jared waters Jensen's plants when Hollywood calls.
Typically the one playing housekeeper will be at the house at whatever hour on Sunday night with food, beer, and some game to be played.
It was an easy extension of their life on set. It was a little surreal, kind of like they were in a whole universe that was simply them. Normal rules didn't apply. If Jared had food on his face (which was typical) Jensen didn't hesitate about just reaching up and wiping it off. If Jensen's hair was out of place or a tag was sticking out (which was not typical) Jared would fix it.
For them it was nothing more than normal, they were lost to the fact that most friends had personal space.
They were like homoerotic bunnies.
The funny thing is that no one thought to tell them that.
**
Nobody knows it
*
Well that isn't entirely true.
The fan girls rolled their eyes from the first episode. They had been slashing so many fandoms they were not going to be detoured by a little something like sibling relations. You can't fake that kind of heat, well you can its called acting, but there was something between Sam and Dean. Wincest was born and when the first box set came out, showing a ‘Day in the Life of Jensen and Jared’ it was over. Pretty much everyone accepted that they were fucking.
The writers crammed in as much brotherly longing as possible without making Middle America blush.
Even Eric Kripke would comment about getting the boys naked and the CW's acceptance towards full frontal nudity.
Jensen and Jared thought it was a huge funny joke. They just played it up.
"So I told the barista..." Jared said, head in the fridge, "That I wanted a double mocha."
Sandy came and looked at him. She mouthed 'Who are you talking to?'
Jared mouthed back 'Jensen.'
A little wrinkled formed between her eyebrows. They had just spent fourteen hours a day, six days a week with Jensen. She had him for less than forty-eight hours.
Something about this didn't make her happy.
**
When I was down
I was your clown
*
Unhappy Jared is a rare species that doesn't exist in nature typically.
However after Sandy dumped him...
"She didn't even have the decency to say it wasn't me it was her," Jared sulked, "She almost came right out and said it was all my fault. What the hell did I do?"
Jensen was just as much honestly baffled, "I dunno man."
...Jared was mopey.
So Jensen bought him candy necklaces and lollypop rings, he took finger puppets and had an ongoing finger puppet drama going on-which seemed similar to something back in Jensen's 'Days' days, and then there was that thing with the twizzler.
Jared was grinning by the end of the week. He was fine on set.
And on the weekend Jensen plied him with tequila and let him cry his sorrows out.
**
Nobody knows it
*
When it happens everyone who would think they would ever be involved has already made the prerequisite jokes. It’s all over the Internet and all over everywhere so they can really be as crazy about it as they want to.
But they're not.
They have a secret that nobody else knows. They're hiding out there in front of everyone's faces. Every event, every scene, everyday, they are just them. The louder they confirm their relationship, the more that people roll their
eyes.
They get to be just themselves.
**
Right from the start
I gave you my heart
I gave you my heart
*
As much as they flaunted their relationship, they really didn't believe much in it.
Its fun for them.
They're the only ones who think that it is just friends with benefits relationship.
"You know that you are in love with him," Chad told Jared one day.
Jared looked at him as if he was crazy, "It's nothing."
Chad snorted. He wasn't going to push this one. Jared could ignore it. It was Chad for christsake.
"What is going on with you and Jared," Chris asked one day.
Jensen snorted, "Sex."
It was obvious. Right.
They had the sex, they spent every moment knowing what each other was doing.
"Do you think that this is why Sandy dumped me," Jared asked looking over at Jensen, meaning that Sandy dumped him because Jared wanted to jump Jensen.
Jensen shrugged, thinking the same thing.
"I think so," Jensen said slowly.
He looked at Jared almost shyly.
Jared just grinned back at him.
"I didn’t think we were being obvious."
Somewhere Chad was rolling his eyes.
**
So don't go breaking my heart
I won't go breaking your heart
Don't go breaking my heart
*
Jensen’s phone rings at three and its Chad, of course because they call each other at obscene hours often just to chat. It had happened a grand total of never times.
“Apparently you take it up the ass,” Chad begins as soon as the call is picked up.
“Hi Chad,” Jensen said, “How are tricks. Did the penicillin work?”
“Come get your boy,” Chad said, “He’s kind of outing you to the entire world.”
“’sat Jensen,” Jensen heard a scuffle, “You can’t have Jensen. I get Jensen and Jensen’s cock.”
“Hey Jay,” Jensen said, looking around for his keys, “Maybe you should lay off the tequila till I get there.”
“You’re coming for me,” Jared squealed and Jensen was never going to let on how much he loved the pure unabashed Jared-ness of that moment.
“I’ll always come for you,” Jensen said, knowing Jared wouldn’t remember in the morning.
“Bring your cock,” Jared said dreamily, “I like your cock and I like you being attached to it and I love it when you stick…”
“No,” howled Chad in the background, “Stop. I don’t want to hear any more about Jensen’s cock.”
**
And nobody told us
`Cause nobody showed us
*
There wasn’t a handy manual on any of this.
Well there was on the sex part, but that was rudimentary. It was basically lots of lube. You never can over lube, and lube was a bitch and half to get out of the linens, but it was needed. They didn’t have to search far to figure out the sex, there were multiple on-line sites about how to do gay, plus there was always trial and error.
There just was nothing about falling in love with a guy, in Hollywood, who was supposed to be your brother. Those crazy kids on Everwood had done it minus the gay part, but THIS, this was a whole new ballgame.
Jared wasn’t too good with secrets, his life was an open book, so it really was a challenge. He was chafing a little. The families knew, hell Sandy knew, but he didn’t like loving someone and not sharing it.
So they started fighting.
And they broke up.
And they got back together.
And they broke up.
And they got back together.
It was a long extended game of trial and error.
Someone should so write the guide to it, because this thing is pretty fucking complicated.
Also they were under the illusion still that it was no big thing.
**
And now it's up to us babe
I think we can make it
*
When Supernatural ends its almost a relief. They’re not brothers anymore. Part of it is sad because they still spend all the time together, but it is harder to explain.
However a long time ago people just started writing it off and slowly it became part of everyone’s consciousness. They don’t feel the need to explain it and no one asks, it simply is their dynamic.
Everyone else knew that it was meant to be way before they had an inkling.
**
So don't misunderstand me
You put the light in my life
*
“You’re glowing pokey,” Chad said as Jared sat down, “And you’re late, so that means that lover boy is not far behind.”
“Hey,” Jared said offended, “Its not always about Jensen.”
“What did I miss,” Jensen asked, strattling the chair.
“Your boyfriend telling me that you are not the love of his life.”
Jensen snorted.
“Oh my god,” Chad huffed waving his hands in front of their faces, you’re dating. You’re in love. You are the only people on the face of this planet that don’t seem to get that.”
Jensen just looked at him strangely and Jared moved Chad’s glass away from him.
“Jensen give me your phone,” Chad demanded.
Jensen’s look of incredulousness magnified. The ensuing scuffle got them kicked out of the club.
They stood outside with Chad holding the phone and Jared holding Jensen back.
“Hi Mrs. Padalecki,” Chad said and he narrowly avoided both Jensen and Jared, “What do you think of your son’s relationship?”
Chad hung up the phone, “Your mom thinks that you are going to get married.”
“Your sister just joined PFLAG.”
“Sandy thinks you are going to adopt children from wherever Brad and Angelina don’t take all the children.”
“Chris thinks that you’re idiots.”
“Mike didn’t know you didn’t realize that you are the stupidest couple ever.”
“Tom and Jamie have a bet going of when you’re getting married.”
Chad had a black eye at the end of the night. However he made a point.
**
You put the sparks to the flame
I've got your heart in my sights
*
“Hmmm,” Jared sighed, “Why does everyone think that we’re in love?”
“They’re trying to think that this is something more than sex?” Jensen guessed.
For one second they just looked straight ahead.
There was only so long you could deny something.
“I’m not throwing dinner parties,” Jensen informed him.
“Can I call you my life partner?” Jared teased.
Jensen shot him the look of death, “Only if you want me to projectile vomit.”
Jared filed that one away.
“We are aren’t we,” Jared asked, hesitantly.
Jensen looked straight at him, “Since day one.”
“I was twenty-one,” Jared squeaked, “You like ‘em under aged Ackles.”
Jensen rolled his eyes, “You like old men Padalecki.”
Jared smiled, “I like you.”
“Good cause I’m too old to break someone else in,” Jensen said, changing the channel.
**
Don’t go breaking my heart.
*
“I love you,” Jared said out of nowhere in the middle of the park.
The dogs were running around and people were milling about.
“I love you too,” Jensen mumbled.