Set your playlist to random. You know what to do ( Read more... )

I wish I hadn't had the abortion. I admit it. I regret that decision. I currently have, have always had, and will always have moral objections to that action, regardless of the reasons behind why I did it, and that won't go away. This dissonance is consuming and I can't talk about it with anyone. ANYONE. How can I love someone and have this ( Read more... )

And I know that you're my only hope. My only hope at living, at love, at happiness. You're my only hope for completion, for relaxation, for restoration. You're the only hope I have for making this moment known as existence worth living, for making this interlude called life a full and enriching experience. Without you, each breath is ( Read more... )

SHAME ( Read more... )

I am exceedingly aware of the joy, and the pain, of simple things. Last night began what should be a monthly event that I simply haven't experienced in about six months. Though a degree of ecstasy is certainly encompassed in these feelings, in truth it mostly inspires remorse. Perhaps remorse is not the appropriate term... Perhaps, just maybe, ( Read more... )

I am exceedingly aware of the joy, and the pain, of simple things. Last night began what should be a monthly event that I simply haven't experienced in about six months. Though a degree of ecstasy is certainly encompassed in these feelings, in truth it mostly inspires remorse. Perhaps remorse is not the appropriate term... Perhaps, just maybe, ( Read more... )

Ah, the long anticipated update ( Read more... )

He came in to work today, told me he doesn't work there anymore, and that he's going to rehab. I didn't even know he was using that much. I mean... Smoking pot, whatever. Cigarettes, whatever. Alcohol, whatever. But coc? 7g of shrooms? Wow. I don't know what to say. I hugged and kissed him good bye in front of two hundred people. ::tears

He brought me home from work last night... And the first thing out of his mouth was "I did something stupid," and I immediately jump to a girl. Haha. Note - we aren't dating. There's really nothing there. Not even hooking up. Ugh. Anyway, he did coc. WHAT THE FUCK. I don't think it even registered before I smacked him. And even so, when ( Read more... )

So... My friend gets me up, outta bed, around twelve forty five. I throw on jeans, slippers, and a sweatshirt (was sleeping in this great black number from Frederick's). We go to Frontier, get some food, come back. K, kosher so far. On the way back, we're discussing the point at which we'll off ourselves - for him, it's when he loses sexual ( Read more... )