"and i'm wishing my legs away - cause they're taking me to nowhere safe"

[trippinoutlaw]

Apologies to the friends ive garnered on this site, apologies to the people ive known in this world....its all been too much bother to maintain the relationship - which is a sad sorry excuse.....But truthfully i havent spoken to anyone in a while.....just putting myself back together like some skinny dopesick humpty dumpty.....sad times at notquite

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[lil_msblasphemy]

I'm happy you're still alive, I would say ok but I don't think it's very easy at first. If you give it time, it should become easier to tolerate, yes? You're very strong, so this shouldn't be that bad. You will come out okay. Just stop ending up to the point of having to worry about death. I'll have to come there and slap you.

I miss feeling comfortable too.

[trippinoutlaw]

Yeah i should be fine. Every day is a little better, just like every other time i've done this. What worries me is down the road, when the boredom and depression become so commonplace, and the avoidance of every day activities isolates me in my own head....thats when i think fuck it...
Its almost easier in the beginning - its new, its a constant fight, and the influx of emotion that was so numbed before paints the world a little brighter....but when all that reduces to a steady state - its hard to continue....

but yeah - i'm tired of waking up in hospitals -its getting old.

Here's to feeling comfortable......