ive never felt so dumb..

you know when you open your mouth - you always regret saying things.. so for so long, i dont speak. and when i muster up something far far away, i remember why i didnt open it for so long before.

im really sorry for ever mentioning it.. it was staceys idea anyhow. and it was either, say something, or she was going to.

you know, the worst part was, it wasn't even a BAD EXPERIENCE... but now everything is weird... stacey, lets just hot tub.

well..

i dont even know what to say..

im leaving for portugal tonight..

miss me..

ill miss everyone...

i do things, think - this has to be the right thing...

then its always - you should know better than to say anything, its always the same.

its hard to fit 7 people into a car that holds 5..
but in the right company, i suppose it works..

"maybe i could tell you,
to keep your head up and follow through,
good things will come to you,
i could worry myself to death about you,
hope you get there safely,
and your unhappiness,

....emotional distress....."

by: hot rod circuit
on: sorry about tomorrow
song: 'safely'

on of my all time favorite bands

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