Envy - Firefly

[trekkim]

Title: Envy (1/7)
Author:
trekkim
Fandom: Firefly
Characters/Pairing: River
Prompt: 5. Envy (7 Deadly Sins) and 017 Lust (100_women)
Word Count: 350
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters or the universe they live in.
Summary: River is jealous of Kaylee
Author Notes: Written for 
7_deadly_sins_  and
100_women

River had taken to avoiding Kaylee and Simon, which was not a difficult task, as they were often in each others company. She avoids their Havens, the sick bay and the engine room, and whenever she hears the sounds of their thoughts, she turns the other way.

At first, she had been drawn to their union and the warmth it radiated. She’d spy on them fornicating from one of Serenity’s hiding places and soak in the moans, the growls, the thrusts, the skin against skin, the penetration. The distance between theory and practice is often great. It was exciting and the birds in her belly singed as she touched herself.

But as the novelty wore off, so did the warmth and River was left alone, cold. The birds feed on empty bread and died of starvation. Always the open vessel, she watched and learned and understood. She had never been held or touched or kissed or licked the way Simon did these things for Kaylee.

Simon enjoys touching Kaylee. Tapping her feet under the table. Holding hands. Draping over each other in the lounge. Simon would massage her feet, kiss her toes, and Kaylee would giggle.

River would never giggle because someone kissed her toes.

Not that she wanted Simon to mate with her. Aside from producing offspring at risk for genetic defects, incestuous relationships were not acceptable within their cultural context.

River envies Kaylee. Sometimes she speaks words and Kaylee looks as though she does in River’s mind when she does nasty things to Kaylee. Only there is no fear, just pain. And confusion. And pity.

No one had ever instigated mating with her nor would anyone ever. No man, or woman, would take on a broken mate

River built a Haven for herself on Serenity’s bridge, where she had claimed the co-pilot seat for herself. The bridge was cold and alone. And as she sat with only Serenity for company, flipping the switches, pressing the buttons, steering the yoke, she knew this was the only fornicating she was going to indulge in and took cold comfort in that.

End
( Chart for 7 Deadly Sins)

( Chart for 100_women)