I am pretty sure I ID as male but I wanted to know how others found out. (I also want to hear from the ladies too, though, and everyone in between or outside the gender boxes)
-I get REALLY upset every time I am called by female pronouns or "ma'am" (so you can see I get upset on a general basis, lol)
-I feel uncomfortable in social situations because
(
Read more... )
Comments 20
(The comment has been removed)
Reply
(The comment has been removed)
Reply
The feeling that I simply could not face the prospect of becoming a middle-aged male. I saw no future.
The way I took delight every time some "mistook" me for female, and the way I felt a bit of me die every time I had to tick, "male" on a form.
And the jealousy I felt towards natal women, which grew in intensity until it almost consumed me. I eventually realised that I wanted what they took for granted.
Reply
Reply
When I was 20, I came out as a lesbian and became very soft butch. That worked for about 9 years. Then I met a woman who was a post-op MtF. Listening to her talk about her life pre- and during transition, I kept thinking "that sounds like me." So I started experimenting. I figured out how to bind for short periods of time and started going out as male. Sometimes I'd be read, sometimes I wouldn't. When I passed, I got a thrill. When I was read, I got bummed.
That went on for about another year, which also included a major bout of depression. I finally, with the support of several MtF friends, started transition. That was a year ago, and my life is so much better than I ever dreamed it could be.
Reply
Reply
but... I know now that my focus, while reading the book and afterward, on the heartbreak was probably just a way to avoid thinking about the transition part of it... it was difiniatly one of the first times the idea of "it's possible to change" was presented in my life.
Reply
Leave a comment