On experiencing being powerful and also being pathetic...

[transcendancing]

So this week has been something of a dichotomy for me. In almost equal intensity, I'm experiencing being powerful, creating what I want for my life and the world around me, working to inspire others, connect people and be an expression of love in the world. I'm also experiencing being emotional, teary and somewhat pathetic... wanting

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[crypticgirl]

My first thought reading this was that whether you see a dichotomy here depends on how you see being powerful. Is there real power in not allowing yourself to experience the full range of emotion and sensation, or is power about how you own those emotions and sensations when they come up? I believe there's a lot of power in being able to ask for help when you need it because it means you think you're bigger than the place you're in at that moment, no matter how shitty that particular moment makes you feel.

I'm in no way trying to belittle what you've felt or why you've felt it. Feeling powerless is an awful thing and we all go there from time to time for good reasons. I guess I'm trying to say that I think sometimes the strongest parts of ourselves come from the weakest places, if we can find just the right step the in process to launch ourselves forward at great speed. From what I've you seem to be really good at doing that.

[transcendancing]

I think it's that in one space, I'm not running the show - I can feel that it's not really an expression who who I see myself as - i don't see it in keeping with what I want to achieve or be