I think I just lost my best friend cause my Dad won't co-sign a loan for me. I'm not fucking going to Fresno. And I got pissed off and threw my phone and broke the speaker cover in my brother's Audi.
Frankly, if your best friend will abandon your friendship because your dad won't co-sign a loan for you, then he/she doesn't deserve the honour of being your best friend.
I know that sounds like complete crap, and I would probably kick anyone who said that to me in the teeth -- but still. It's true.
She's not abandoning me because my dad won't co-sign a loan. It's cause I royally screwed up and didn't come up with my half of the money to move to Fresno. I got screwed by my job and then by unemployment. And since I didn't plan this move well... my dad won't co-sign my loan for 2 grand.... which I will easily pay off as soon as umemployment gives me my money. It just fucking sucks and I want to die right now. All day I've been thinking about cutting. I've had self-injurious behaviors... but I've never cut before. I've also been thinking about burning too. Its scary. Anyways... I think Lisa has a right to be mad that I screwed her over. She needs to move to Fresno for school. I was just going to start over. We already have a 2 bedroom apartment waiting for us there. Fucking sucks. I'm gonna beg my dad again... tell him I have job interviews or something.
OK, that situation is much more difficult, I'm sorry I misunderstood originally -- good luck with your dad. Don't you hate parents sometimes? I mean, you're gonna pay him back as soon as the unemployment gets in! Jesus.
And, as someone who is a cutter and has burned himself occasionally, don't you dare start. It is not worth it. I'm sure you know that, since you've had self-injurious behaviour before, but I still have to say it. If someone had convinced me of that when I was 14, I wouldn't have to wear long sleeves in 39C weather now.
*hugs* Good luck with your dad and with Fresno -- it could still happen.
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I know that sounds like complete crap, and I would probably kick anyone who said that to me in the teeth -- but still. It's true.
Sorry about Fresno and the Audi.
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And, as someone who is a cutter and has burned himself occasionally, don't you dare start. It is not worth it. I'm sure you know that, since you've had self-injurious behaviour before, but I still have to say it. If someone had convinced me of that when I was 14, I wouldn't have to wear long sleeves in 39C weather now.
*hugs* Good luck with your dad and with Fresno -- it could still happen.
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something will come I'm sure of it :)
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My sister told me she was going to do a Wiccen spell to help me out. And... supposedly... things happen for a reason.
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