that made me tear up. i'm so sorry. basically the same thing happened with my parents when i was 14, and i'm the way you are - when there's a disagreement, i'll do anything to make sure that nothing physical happens :/
Well, I witnessed my dad trying to kill my mom. I also grew up seeing him get high all the time, using various drugs, fist fighting with other druggies.
But now I'm completely anti-drug, and I often help out organizations against domestic violence. I married a man who is the COMPLETE opposite of my father, and vow to do whatever possible to make sure my children never feel the way I did as a child.
ah non anonopheliaheartAugust 8 2008, 17:34:01 UTC
My parents hate each other. My dad spends most of his time coughing and smoking and drinking. He has to use a ventilator to breathe sometimes. He won't go to the doctors. I tell him i worry about him and he tells me to get lost.
Sometimes i think because i have grown up in a hostile place i won't ever trust anyone enough relationship wise, all my past 'relationships' have just been intimacy and no real depth to it. I am scared to get close to anyone in case in turns into something like that.
Growing up my mum worked long hours and my dad was never here, it turned me into a introverted person who can't share her problems. And i am worried it will stay that way..
I don't remember how old I was, but I was young enough for my mom to ask me if I knew what "divorce" meant. When I answered "yeahhhhh" she said that her and my dad were getting a divorce. We all sat in my living room and cried for a few hours.
It was never, ever mentioned again. They've been married for 29 years as of Sunday. I'm always afraid that it was because of my reaction that they're still together and don't know if they have a secret plan to get divorced when I get older.
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Well, I witnessed my dad trying to kill my mom. I also grew up seeing him get high all the time, using various drugs, fist fighting with other druggies.
But now I'm completely anti-drug, and I often help out organizations against domestic violence. I married a man who is the COMPLETE opposite of my father, and vow to do whatever possible to make sure my children never feel the way I did as a child.
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Sometimes i think because i have grown up in a hostile place i won't ever trust anyone enough relationship wise, all my past 'relationships' have just been intimacy and no real depth to it. I am scared to get close to anyone in case in turns into something like that.
Growing up my mum worked long hours and my dad was never here, it turned me into a introverted person who can't share her problems. And i am worried it will stay that way..
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It was never, ever mentioned again. They've been married for 29 years as of Sunday. I'm always afraid that it was because of my reaction that they're still together and don't know if they have a secret plan to get divorced when I get older.
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