Strangulation/suffocation, inhaling nail polish remover and any other chemicals with 'may cause harm/death' warnings (I was 11), overdose of painkillers, overdose of antidepressants + anti psychotics + dexamphetamine + heart medication, walking into traffic, jumping in front of a train, trapping myself in with exhaust fumes, slowly drinking myself to death.
I think I'm probably not who you think I am. I never talk about this publicly, not even in my journal. But thank you, and I hope whoever you thought I was knows they can talk to you too.
I have overdosed on painkillers at least three times. One was hospitalization, and that was the least severe overdose. I have purposely drank 1.5 liters of vodka and taken Xanax. (not hospitalized for this) I have strangled myself until I blacked out. (hospitalized for this, but shortly, no commitment to a psych ward) I have contemplated shooting myself. There is a gun in my house. I have also contemplated driving my car off of a cliff. I have attempted suicide well over ten times, even (or especially?) when I didn't know what it was. I have just always felt like dying.
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(rereading that, it sounds rather sarcastic. but i'm being serious.)
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If you ever need someone to talk to I am here.
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I have purposely drank 1.5 liters of vodka and taken Xanax. (not hospitalized for this)
I have strangled myself until I blacked out. (hospitalized for this, but shortly, no commitment to a psych ward)
I have contemplated shooting myself. There is a gun in my house. I have also contemplated driving my car off of a cliff. I have attempted suicide well over ten times, even (or especially?) when I didn't know what it was. I have just always felt like dying.
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