When I was 3 I was involved in a pretty terrible car accident. My grandma died before the ambulance arrived, my cousin broke all his limbs, and my mother was injured so badly that she was stuck in a wheelchair for the rest of her life. I ended up with a little bruise above my lip. I still feel guilty that wasn't I injured and everyone else was.
I think I've mentioned this in TQC so I don't think my identity is going to be some huge mystery.
that's so horrible. I know you have probably heard it and said it a million times, but it's not your fault. You do not deserve to feel guilty. I hope you are okay, and I hope you are happy. ♥
not one single person in my life knows, and I have always been too uncomfortable to write it down, either on paper or on the internet. I know it's relatively not that big of a deal, and it happens to a lot of people, but
my father beat me.
not anyone else in my family, just me. just me. except one time, he hit my mum and she phoned 911. I was in the bathtub at the time, I think I was 11 years old. I had to talk to the cops, and they took my dad away. I didn't bathe again for three weeks. I have never told ANYONE close to me about this. but I do feel like it has fucked up my life a little bit. I am angry and afraid all of the time. this time last year, he was trying to drag me out of the house by the roots of my hair.
I know this is has probably happened to many other people
anonymous
July 17 2008, 19:23:03 UTC
I was molested by an older friend when I was 14. My mother convinced me that I had dreamed it, because his parents were close to my parents. I have never been able to have fulfilling relationships platonic/sexual since that time. It feels good to have written this.
Re: I know this is has probably happened to many other peoplepooJuly 17 2008, 19:28:34 UTC
That's fucking horrible. When I was molested my mother told me not to report it because it would "mess up my probation" (for the record, I was 13 and on probation for marijuana possession - probably trashy/not classy, but that's not the point). I heeded her advice and didn't, not for six months. December of that year I found a counselor on my own that was covered by my health insurance and had her help me report it. Because I waited, the fucker got away with it even though he had previous instances on his record. No, that's not right, they didn't even TALK to him, they told me I had to get him to confess before they did that.
It feels good to write out my anger, even though I have before. I understand your pain <3
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anonymous
July 17 2008, 19:31:35 UTC
thanks poo, <3. Youre so strong to come out and talk about things like this in the open, I really really admire that about you. I could never do that. OMG I almost slipped and posted non-anon. lol.
Like anyone is having any trouble guessing this one, but sometimes I feel SO overwhelmed if I think about the sad things that have happened in my life, like I'm just going to break down again. I don't know how to deal with myself when I feel like that so I try not to think about it, but I really wonder what I did to deserve this. I don't know why it is that I have to trick myself into not thinking about so many huge parts of my life just so I can get through the day.
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ahaha, dumbass.
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I think I've mentioned this in TQC so I don't think my identity is going to be some huge mystery.
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my father beat me.
not anyone else in my family, just me. just me. except one time, he hit my mum and she phoned 911. I was in the bathtub at the time, I think I was 11 years old. I had to talk to the cops, and they took my dad away. I didn't bathe again for three weeks. I have never told ANYONE close to me about this. but I do feel like it has fucked up my life a little bit. I am angry and afraid all of the time. this time last year, he was trying to drag me out of the house by the roots of my hair.
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I know some of you assholes were actually so bothered by the grammatical error that you could not read the comment.
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It feels good to write out my anger, even though I have before. I understand your pain <3
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