"as i read the words of a teen series, i suddenly become palpably aware of how possessed and obsessed i get when i think i have fallen in love. i remember as if it is happening now, the quick crisp smack of a breeze that happens the second someone moves away from your side - to get a drink, to go home for the night, to go talk to a buddy. i feel ( Read more... )

I'm losing control of myself. My insecurities, my needs, my mental instabilities are pushing me down. I need to get a grip. I'm grasping at straws for control, but instead of controlling myself I'm trying to control other people. I feel lost. I hate that feeling of fighting against something that makes you uncomfortable, knowing that it shouldn't ( Read more... )

I'm so mentally and physically exhausted. The stress of everything has been wearing me down and I cry at anything. I've never been like this, and it was almost easier to walk around like a zombie than feel all these things, although the past day or two I can feel my mind doing what it does in times like these. I can feel it start to shut down and ( Read more... )

To anyone who isn't sure whether or not to move in with their boyfriend or girlfriend my advice is simple ( Read more... )

I just saw the Harry Potter trailer and I'm giddy with delight.
NOVEMBER COME NOW SO I CAN DRINK (legally) AND SEE HARRY POTTER.

PS. I love Margaret Cho

I'm finally online at the apartment. It gives me something to do when Paul is at work at night, because sitting alone at home with nothing to do but watch old vhs movies or read gets my mind working too much and that in turn depresses the hell out of me. I'm not used to being alone so much, and it's driving me a little mad. Things will get better ( Read more... )

We're getting the internet set up at the apartment tomorrow so I'll hopefully be back posting on livejournal again.

Life away from home and with my boyfriend is good. Actually, I was surprised how quickly our apartment felt like where I belonged. It's amazing to wake up next to someone you love every day. We still don't have internet, which is why it's been so long since I've written. It's hard to get used to finances, so we're both constantly broke. It's been ( Read more... )

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