Comments | torakhan: Is Pon Farr Rreal?

torakhan

Is Pon Farr Rreal?

Aug 17, 2011 20:44

I've been experiencing some dramatic highs and lows lately. A sudden urge for and lack of physical intimacy in a seemingly testosterone-high that was easily crushed back to massive depression. WTF?

Things at work have been a bit stressful, but manageable. Gen Con came around and while there, somehing happened. Emotionally I became unable to ( Read more... )

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dhstein August 18 2011, 12:45:15 UTC

I believe in hormones.
Yours sound like total no fun.

Those stupid hormones torakhan August 25 2011, 02:42:14 UTC

Heh. Thanks. Yeah, it was kind of an emotional-dump-post. I felt it the strongest when I was typing it. The next day I was feeling a bit better.

... but it still hits me from time to time.

ebonytigress August 19 2011, 02:04:53 UTC

I go through waves of depression as well (as you know) it really does cause for a lot of negative inward thoughts to feed it and allow that desolation to grow.

I know it will probably come to a head at some point in my marriage, but I do not want biological children. I have no desire to birth children.

Sometimes I feel a little broken because I don't have this maternal drive that other people seem to possess.

I'd rather plan on raising a puppy if I get the desire to mother anything at all, that's why I got Dante.

Crazy Emotions and such. torakhan August 25 2011, 02:41:05 UTC

*nods* I have no interest in raising kids. I mean, I understand and sometimes I feel that "it would be nice to have a mini-me running around to carry on my name, my genes, etc. It saddens me a lot that I am "Arthur Roswell Dreese III" and there will never be a fourth... that my mother will never see me father children, raise a family, etc. I feel like I've failed her at times.
Hopefully my brother (who's turning 30, dating a girl for 8 or so years, and has no kids either) will take care of that before she gets too old.

... but I also can't help but wonder if certain life experiences don't awaken new pathways in the brain that mature with stimuli. Would having a kid make me more prone to being "fatherly"? Would I be able to actually have a relationship if I just gave it a try?

Right now, even if I had an apartment, I don't think I could be responsible enough to have a cat, sooo... no kids for me (at least not on purpose.)