[fanfiction] Of Faking and Feeling ch.5
Fandom: Naruto
Characters (in this chapter): Itachi, Madara, Sasuke, Sai, Tenzou, Suigetsu, Kisame, Konan, Pein.
Pairings (in this chapter): None, implied Suigetsu→Itachi and Suigetsu→Karin.
Rating: G.
Notes: This is mainly Madara/Sai but it's going to contain Everyone/Sai plus other pairings as the story keeps going.
I hope you'll find it interesting, feel free to give every kind of critique!
The concept for this ffic is stolen from nixcore but the characters in this ffic have nothing to do with the players ;_; !!
This story is betaed by dear darkninja on y!G ♥
Previous chapters: [1], [2], [3], [4]
V.
“But-Uncle, today I’m supposed to-“
Itachi protested, just to be cut off abruptly by Madara “-It’s an order, Itachi. I’m expecting you to obey promptly.”
“Yes, sir.”
Itachi sighed as he hanged down the phone, glaring blankly at the screen of his computer.
“Niisan-?”
Sasuke ducked into Itachi’s room, a huge smile on his lips and the worst timing ever “-Since you’re free today, would you mind giving me and Suigetsu a ride to the mall? We’re not up for the train--”
“Sorry Sasuke, but uncle just assigned me a mission-“
“Wha--?! That’s unfair, even on your day off?”
“Well, especially because it’s my day off-“
“Awww, I hope it’s something worth the bother-Do you have to kill someone or what--?”
Itachi eyed his little brother.
He wasn’t amused of how he was growing up because of Madara and Orochimaru’s influences.
“Watch your mouth, moron--”
“Why, it’s not that we’re in front of others!” Sasuke dismissed him, getting out of the room “Chill out, niisan!”
Itachi sighed.
The world was filled with so much stupidity.
***
Sai opened the door and it took him a little before recognizing the man in front of him.
“Ah, Tenzou-san, good morning. Hyou-senpai told me that you were coming,” he smiled promptly one of his complacent little smiles “I’m glad the elders sent you to support me.”
“I hope we’ll do some good job together,” Tenzou smiled back as Sai let him in his tiny apartment “It’s little, but nice-Sorry if I bother you…”
“Don’t worry, it’s ok. I got another futon for you, so we can share the bedroom.” Sai explained, locking the entrance.
“Sounds good. Thank you for hospitality.”
“No problem,” he sat at the little table in the living room “So, you want me to report you on my current situation..?”
“I already know about your coverage,” Tenzou nodded, sitting in front of him “Tell me about how your job with Madara is going.”
Sai nodded “I’m supposed to get closer to him, get his trust and update Danzou-sama and the leader about his upcoming moves; Danzou-sama suspects that Madara is planning something against Senju clan, but unfortunately I didn’t get any chance to know as much as I liked to. Madara is extremely reserved and elusive and the few times I met him privately he never left me alone, so I couldn’t check his cellphone or look for further evidences.”
“What about placing some bugs on his clothes or car?”
“I thought about it, but it’s impossible. Every inch of Akatsuki is surveilled by cameras, so is its parking; there’s also a metal detector at the entrance, so bringing a bug in is impossible--”
“Well, we can try to hide it into something-Maybe in your cellphone-Do you think you could get in a situation where you can place it on Madara’s clothes? At least we could find his house this way.”
Sai nodded “That’s an idea-And yes, I guess I can find any chance to meet him again. The man likes me. Or at least, he likes the character I’m playing for him.”
Tenzou nodded “Good, I’ll start work on it immediately--”
“Ah, there’s a problem, though-Tomorrow I’ll have to leave to start the shooting of a movie-We’re going to Saitama for a few days ‘cause the movie is set in a sea place’s location,” Sai added “We’ll be back on Thursday for the shooting of the sex scenes, that we’ll be done in studio.”
Tenzou frowned slightly; that was going to be a problem for his task of keeping an eye on Sai…
“…Do you think that you won’t have any chance to meet Madara during the shooting in Saitama..?”
“It’s very likely-There are other movies to follow and I can’t see Madara to come all the way to Saitama just to check on me, as much as I remember him of his otouto--”
“Don’t underestimate the wavering of human’s heart,” Tenzou smiled knowingly “I’ll get the device ready for tonight, so you can bring it with you anyway.”
“Ok,” Sai nodded “By the way, Tenzou-san, who are you..?”
Tenzou smiled “I’m your cousin coming here to attend a Master in Marketing for the next three months. My name is Yamada Yamato.”
Sai nodded.
***
“Why is it Kisame? I thought you asked Itachi to drive us around!” Suigetsu said loudly from the backseat of Kisame’s car, making sure the man could hear him.
“I told you, he was busy with work. He had to take care of some footage, even on his day off,” Sasuke explained boredly, looking out of the window on the passenger side.
Kisame, who had decided to take care of the brats instead of his friend, replied to the tense mood with a smirk. “You’ll have to bear with me, bleached brat. After all we’re going to be quite close during our Saitama trip.”
“I’m not very eager, Same-chan,” Suigetsu grinned. “But I’m curious about this Sai boy. Our princess over here says that he’s no good, but Karin is so head-over-heels for him already--”
“Karin is head-over-heels for every man within a ten-mile radius,” Sasuke muttered, already bored with the whole discussion. If Itachi was there, it would have been much funnier! He could have teased him about Suigetsu and the crush his friend had on him: Itachi always gave the weirdest responses when embarrassed, it was hilarious --!
“Every man but me.” Suigetsu pouted.
“It’s because you’re a bleached bitch who likes taking it in the butt.” Kisame grinned.
“-That’s not true!” Suigetsu protested half-heartedly.
“Seriously, you should make your mind up, Suigetsu-You prefer Karin or Itachi? You have to choose one, I don’t think they’re up for a threesome--” Sasuke smirked, deciding to enjoy his teasing anyway.
Kisame chuckled at the idea “I don’t think it’s such a big deal, after all neither of them is interested in Sui-chan anyway…”
“-Now, that’s mean! You team up against me to fight the boredom! Sasuke! You’re no longer my best friend--! And Same-chan, you should be nicer to your countryman--!” Suigetsu stated, offended.
Why did he have to be the comical relief for those two? He was a man with feelings and a troubled past! He had some dignity, too!
“-Anyway, I offered to take you to the mall ‘cause I have some shopping to do for tomorrow’s trip too… But I don’t want to spend all day in it to follow you ladies around. I’m a practical man,” Kisame said, taking to make things clear; last time he escorted Sasuke to the mall he wasted seven hours of his life bouncing from one shop to another, glaring at fancy clothes.
“No worry, I’m just here to accompany Suigetsu,” Sasuke replied almost innocently. “I was bored at home, so I decided to come-I can’t leave a lovelorn Suigetsu alone, he could do something dangerous to himself.” He grinned at his friend.
“Sasuke-I hope you’ll fall in love with some moronic weirdo and will suffer for it, so you’ll know how I feel and understand what an asshole you are being.” Suigetsu glared at him, crossing his arms on his chest.
“Hey, Itachi is not a moronic weirdo--” Kisame added.
“Tsk, I’ll never fall in love,” Sasuke grinned “That’s stuff for weak people with nothing better to do in their spare time.”
***
“It’s so boring to work with newbies… I have no idea of how to render his character… What if he doesn’t suit him at all?” Konan frowned, glaring at the screen of her PC.
Pein got closer and peeked at the displayed document.
“I think you’re being too obsessive about it. The script has been approved already, there’s no point in getting mad over it again,” Pein declared, smiling lightly thinking that Konan’s troubled face was extra cute that afternoon.
“I guess, but--”
“Besides, our work is going to be freely interpreted by Orochimaru as usual… Tsk, if he had his mind set about the story already, why couldn’t he write it himself?”
“Yeah-I died a little when I saw what happened to the ending of ‘Deeper Inside’ … I mean-What the hell, he completely changed the meaning of the whole story with that “It’s been nice” at the end. “It’s been nice”?! That sounded ridiculous--!”
Pein smiled, glad he managed to distract Konan from her sulking by reminding her how much she hated their prissy director. “I heard he’s quite wary of the newcomer. I watched his audition shot and he wasn’t so bad… I mean, some expressions were a little off, but his body worked really well… I think that his character in our story should do good to him, the sea scenes you came up with were extremely inspiring, we can allow him to show off that body’s expressiveness… That is, if Orochimaru stops shredding our plots because he wants to show some naked butts.”
“But we made sure to have the protagonist naked the most of time, so it should be ok.” Konan grinned.
Pein chuckled. “Yeah, we’re getting pretty sneaky about adjusting our stories to Orochimaru’s tastes so he can focus on his shit and leave the drama and character development to us,” he high-five’d Konan and they ended up chuckling.
That’s stuff that makes scriptwriters happy.
“Besides, don’t you think that the new boy’s strange? Do you think he doesn’t like having sex or what? It looks like he can’t connect his body with his face,” Konan wondered, finally closing the script file.
“I don’t know ‘cause I don’t know much about him… But it would be weird if he didn’t like sex but applied for a job as porn actor, don’t you think?”
“Mhhh, then it must depend on the shooting itself,” Konan continued, strangely amused. “Probably he’s so distracted by the need to keep up a good performance that he forgets about the performance itself.”
“Definitely. He doesn’t seem like someone who lets himself go very frequently--”
“And he wanted to be a porn actor. Weird.”
“It must be really difficult… It’s not even about acting, it should be tricky to fix if you’re not completely aware of the reasons… And add to the mix the prima donna aspirations of the most of Akatsuki’s actors and you’re done with it.”
“Yeah-I mean, he’s paired up with Suigetsu and Kisame,” Konan smiled at the idea “It’s like placing a goldfish in the same aquarium as two sharks.”
“A goldfish,” Pein chuckled “That’s so fitting.”
***
Sai looked at his expression in the mirror and frowned.
He wasn’t even sure how to deal with that flaw in his performance… He never wondered about having the right expression while having sex, before.
He just did it and his partners never complained about the face he made, on the contrary.
He knew he was still good at it after meeting with senpai.
--Such an embarrassing and stupid flaw, how was he supposed to overcome it in the first place? And who could he talk about it with? Danzou-sama was out of the question, he would be extremely disappointed with him; Hyou-senpai didn’t seem like a good choice and-Well, Naruto was completely out of the question.
And the others in Akatsuki just seemed to dislike him to the bone.
Maybe Madara could-
“Sai? Something wrong…? You’ve been glaring at your face for an hour or more-I have to use the bathroom.” Tenzou ducked in, a perplexed expression on his face.
“Oh--” Sai blushed, a little embarrassed by his weird behaviour. “S-Sure, please, come in-Sorry, I was thinking about something…”
“If there’s something bugging you we can talk about it. I’m here to give you all possible support.” Tenzou offered.
Sai’s eyes blinked.
Yes, Tenzou could be a good choice… He’s a clansman, he’s in the same line of work and opening up to him could be good for their mutual trust-
“--But we’ll have to do it later.” Tenzou urged.
“Oh-Ah, sure, ok, I’ll be in the living room,” Sai excused himself, going out of the bathroom.
He sat on the couch, thinking of the best way to formulate his troubles in a comprehensible way.
Words can be tricky, and Sai was often uncomfortable with them.
Tenzou came back out to him a few minutes later, his hands smelling clean with soap. “So, what’s the problem? Something about the mission?”
“In a sense,” Sai lowered his eyes. “I’m having troubles because I can’t show emotions on my face properly during the sex scenes.”
Tenzou took a moment to comprehend the words. “Uh-And-It’s something bad? I don’t think the watchers would be that focused on your face anyway.”
“It’s not funny,” Sai raised an eyebrow. “If I lose my work because of it, it would be impossible for me to get closer to Madara.”
“Well, of course-I’m just surprised that acting skills are actually important in the porn industry--” Tenzou shrugged. “So, what kind of expressions do you make?”
“I don’t know, I guess none. The director told me that I look like Forrest Gump.”
Tenzou couldn’t help but laugh.
Sai frowned.
Maybe talking about it to him wasn’t a good idea…
“Aehm-Sorry, but that’s an amusing image--” Tenzou returned to the serious guy he was supposed to be. “Anyway, why don’t you show emotions..? Is it because you don’t like having sex with strangers?”
Sai was about to laugh. As if he didn’t have sex with strangers before. “It’s not that, it’s just like… I mean, when I’m there the look on my face is the last thing I care about.”
“It’s obvious, your mind is focused on the emotions--”
“E-Emotions?” Sai looked a little confused.
“Yes, you know… You’re having sex with someone. Pleasure, relaxation, that kind of thing. Focusing on them should be enough to give you the proper expression. What do you usually focus on while having sex?”
“On pleasing my partner.”
“W-You mean you don’t like it…?”
“Of course I do,” Sai smiled, as if he was talking to someone retarded. “I start with the need to please my partner, then when I feel him liking it I start to like it too. I did the same at work, but something felt off. The other actors liked having sex with me and it felt good, but there was something I couldn’t--”
“-Maybe it’s because you were being recorded--? Like, having people watching you and recording your performance. Maybe you’re uneasy about it.”
“Yeah… Maybe… What can I do to overcome it?”
Tenzou thought about it for a little, then shrugged “I have no idea… Maybe you should talk about it with the other actors, they could give you some useful tips.”
Sai nodded.
That was a good idea.
Characters (in this chapter): Itachi, Madara, Sasuke, Sai, Tenzou, Suigetsu, Kisame, Konan, Pein.
Pairings (in this chapter): None, implied Suigetsu→Itachi and Suigetsu→Karin.
Rating: G.
Notes: This is mainly Madara/Sai but it's going to contain Everyone/Sai plus other pairings as the story keeps going.
I hope you'll find it interesting, feel free to give every kind of critique!
The concept for this ffic is stolen from nixcore but the characters in this ffic have nothing to do with the players ;_; !!
This story is betaed by dear darkninja on y!G ♥
Previous chapters: [1], [2], [3], [4]
V.
“But-Uncle, today I’m supposed to-“
Itachi protested, just to be cut off abruptly by Madara “-It’s an order, Itachi. I’m expecting you to obey promptly.”
“Yes, sir.”
Itachi sighed as he hanged down the phone, glaring blankly at the screen of his computer.
“Niisan-?”
Sasuke ducked into Itachi’s room, a huge smile on his lips and the worst timing ever “-Since you’re free today, would you mind giving me and Suigetsu a ride to the mall? We’re not up for the train--”
“Sorry Sasuke, but uncle just assigned me a mission-“
“Wha--?! That’s unfair, even on your day off?”
“Well, especially because it’s my day off-“
“Awww, I hope it’s something worth the bother-Do you have to kill someone or what--?”
Itachi eyed his little brother.
He wasn’t amused of how he was growing up because of Madara and Orochimaru’s influences.
“Watch your mouth, moron--”
“Why, it’s not that we’re in front of others!” Sasuke dismissed him, getting out of the room “Chill out, niisan!”
Itachi sighed.
The world was filled with so much stupidity.
***
Sai opened the door and it took him a little before recognizing the man in front of him.
“Ah, Tenzou-san, good morning. Hyou-senpai told me that you were coming,” he smiled promptly one of his complacent little smiles “I’m glad the elders sent you to support me.”
“I hope we’ll do some good job together,” Tenzou smiled back as Sai let him in his tiny apartment “It’s little, but nice-Sorry if I bother you…”
“Don’t worry, it’s ok. I got another futon for you, so we can share the bedroom.” Sai explained, locking the entrance.
“Sounds good. Thank you for hospitality.”
“No problem,” he sat at the little table in the living room “So, you want me to report you on my current situation..?”
“I already know about your coverage,” Tenzou nodded, sitting in front of him “Tell me about how your job with Madara is going.”
Sai nodded “I’m supposed to get closer to him, get his trust and update Danzou-sama and the leader about his upcoming moves; Danzou-sama suspects that Madara is planning something against Senju clan, but unfortunately I didn’t get any chance to know as much as I liked to. Madara is extremely reserved and elusive and the few times I met him privately he never left me alone, so I couldn’t check his cellphone or look for further evidences.”
“What about placing some bugs on his clothes or car?”
“I thought about it, but it’s impossible. Every inch of Akatsuki is surveilled by cameras, so is its parking; there’s also a metal detector at the entrance, so bringing a bug in is impossible--”
“Well, we can try to hide it into something-Maybe in your cellphone-Do you think you could get in a situation where you can place it on Madara’s clothes? At least we could find his house this way.”
Sai nodded “That’s an idea-And yes, I guess I can find any chance to meet him again. The man likes me. Or at least, he likes the character I’m playing for him.”
Tenzou nodded “Good, I’ll start work on it immediately--”
“Ah, there’s a problem, though-Tomorrow I’ll have to leave to start the shooting of a movie-We’re going to Saitama for a few days ‘cause the movie is set in a sea place’s location,” Sai added “We’ll be back on Thursday for the shooting of the sex scenes, that we’ll be done in studio.”
Tenzou frowned slightly; that was going to be a problem for his task of keeping an eye on Sai…
“…Do you think that you won’t have any chance to meet Madara during the shooting in Saitama..?”
“It’s very likely-There are other movies to follow and I can’t see Madara to come all the way to Saitama just to check on me, as much as I remember him of his otouto--”
“Don’t underestimate the wavering of human’s heart,” Tenzou smiled knowingly “I’ll get the device ready for tonight, so you can bring it with you anyway.”
“Ok,” Sai nodded “By the way, Tenzou-san, who are you..?”
Tenzou smiled “I’m your cousin coming here to attend a Master in Marketing for the next three months. My name is Yamada Yamato.”
Sai nodded.
***
“Why is it Kisame? I thought you asked Itachi to drive us around!” Suigetsu said loudly from the backseat of Kisame’s car, making sure the man could hear him.
“I told you, he was busy with work. He had to take care of some footage, even on his day off,” Sasuke explained boredly, looking out of the window on the passenger side.
Kisame, who had decided to take care of the brats instead of his friend, replied to the tense mood with a smirk. “You’ll have to bear with me, bleached brat. After all we’re going to be quite close during our Saitama trip.”
“I’m not very eager, Same-chan,” Suigetsu grinned. “But I’m curious about this Sai boy. Our princess over here says that he’s no good, but Karin is so head-over-heels for him already--”
“Karin is head-over-heels for every man within a ten-mile radius,” Sasuke muttered, already bored with the whole discussion. If Itachi was there, it would have been much funnier! He could have teased him about Suigetsu and the crush his friend had on him: Itachi always gave the weirdest responses when embarrassed, it was hilarious --!
“Every man but me.” Suigetsu pouted.
“It’s because you’re a bleached bitch who likes taking it in the butt.” Kisame grinned.
“-That’s not true!” Suigetsu protested half-heartedly.
“Seriously, you should make your mind up, Suigetsu-You prefer Karin or Itachi? You have to choose one, I don’t think they’re up for a threesome--” Sasuke smirked, deciding to enjoy his teasing anyway.
Kisame chuckled at the idea “I don’t think it’s such a big deal, after all neither of them is interested in Sui-chan anyway…”
“-Now, that’s mean! You team up against me to fight the boredom! Sasuke! You’re no longer my best friend--! And Same-chan, you should be nicer to your countryman--!” Suigetsu stated, offended.
Why did he have to be the comical relief for those two? He was a man with feelings and a troubled past! He had some dignity, too!
“-Anyway, I offered to take you to the mall ‘cause I have some shopping to do for tomorrow’s trip too… But I don’t want to spend all day in it to follow you ladies around. I’m a practical man,” Kisame said, taking to make things clear; last time he escorted Sasuke to the mall he wasted seven hours of his life bouncing from one shop to another, glaring at fancy clothes.
“No worry, I’m just here to accompany Suigetsu,” Sasuke replied almost innocently. “I was bored at home, so I decided to come-I can’t leave a lovelorn Suigetsu alone, he could do something dangerous to himself.” He grinned at his friend.
“Sasuke-I hope you’ll fall in love with some moronic weirdo and will suffer for it, so you’ll know how I feel and understand what an asshole you are being.” Suigetsu glared at him, crossing his arms on his chest.
“Hey, Itachi is not a moronic weirdo--” Kisame added.
“Tsk, I’ll never fall in love,” Sasuke grinned “That’s stuff for weak people with nothing better to do in their spare time.”
***
“It’s so boring to work with newbies… I have no idea of how to render his character… What if he doesn’t suit him at all?” Konan frowned, glaring at the screen of her PC.
Pein got closer and peeked at the displayed document.
“I think you’re being too obsessive about it. The script has been approved already, there’s no point in getting mad over it again,” Pein declared, smiling lightly thinking that Konan’s troubled face was extra cute that afternoon.
“I guess, but--”
“Besides, our work is going to be freely interpreted by Orochimaru as usual… Tsk, if he had his mind set about the story already, why couldn’t he write it himself?”
“Yeah-I died a little when I saw what happened to the ending of ‘Deeper Inside’ … I mean-What the hell, he completely changed the meaning of the whole story with that “It’s been nice” at the end. “It’s been nice”?! That sounded ridiculous--!”
Pein smiled, glad he managed to distract Konan from her sulking by reminding her how much she hated their prissy director. “I heard he’s quite wary of the newcomer. I watched his audition shot and he wasn’t so bad… I mean, some expressions were a little off, but his body worked really well… I think that his character in our story should do good to him, the sea scenes you came up with were extremely inspiring, we can allow him to show off that body’s expressiveness… That is, if Orochimaru stops shredding our plots because he wants to show some naked butts.”
“But we made sure to have the protagonist naked the most of time, so it should be ok.” Konan grinned.
Pein chuckled. “Yeah, we’re getting pretty sneaky about adjusting our stories to Orochimaru’s tastes so he can focus on his shit and leave the drama and character development to us,” he high-five’d Konan and they ended up chuckling.
That’s stuff that makes scriptwriters happy.
“Besides, don’t you think that the new boy’s strange? Do you think he doesn’t like having sex or what? It looks like he can’t connect his body with his face,” Konan wondered, finally closing the script file.
“I don’t know ‘cause I don’t know much about him… But it would be weird if he didn’t like sex but applied for a job as porn actor, don’t you think?”
“Mhhh, then it must depend on the shooting itself,” Konan continued, strangely amused. “Probably he’s so distracted by the need to keep up a good performance that he forgets about the performance itself.”
“Definitely. He doesn’t seem like someone who lets himself go very frequently--”
“And he wanted to be a porn actor. Weird.”
“It must be really difficult… It’s not even about acting, it should be tricky to fix if you’re not completely aware of the reasons… And add to the mix the prima donna aspirations of the most of Akatsuki’s actors and you’re done with it.”
“Yeah-I mean, he’s paired up with Suigetsu and Kisame,” Konan smiled at the idea “It’s like placing a goldfish in the same aquarium as two sharks.”
“A goldfish,” Pein chuckled “That’s so fitting.”
***
Sai looked at his expression in the mirror and frowned.
He wasn’t even sure how to deal with that flaw in his performance… He never wondered about having the right expression while having sex, before.
He just did it and his partners never complained about the face he made, on the contrary.
He knew he was still good at it after meeting with senpai.
--Such an embarrassing and stupid flaw, how was he supposed to overcome it in the first place? And who could he talk about it with? Danzou-sama was out of the question, he would be extremely disappointed with him; Hyou-senpai didn’t seem like a good choice and-Well, Naruto was completely out of the question.
And the others in Akatsuki just seemed to dislike him to the bone.
Maybe Madara could-
“Sai? Something wrong…? You’ve been glaring at your face for an hour or more-I have to use the bathroom.” Tenzou ducked in, a perplexed expression on his face.
“Oh--” Sai blushed, a little embarrassed by his weird behaviour. “S-Sure, please, come in-Sorry, I was thinking about something…”
“If there’s something bugging you we can talk about it. I’m here to give you all possible support.” Tenzou offered.
Sai’s eyes blinked.
Yes, Tenzou could be a good choice… He’s a clansman, he’s in the same line of work and opening up to him could be good for their mutual trust-
“--But we’ll have to do it later.” Tenzou urged.
“Oh-Ah, sure, ok, I’ll be in the living room,” Sai excused himself, going out of the bathroom.
He sat on the couch, thinking of the best way to formulate his troubles in a comprehensible way.
Words can be tricky, and Sai was often uncomfortable with them.
Tenzou came back out to him a few minutes later, his hands smelling clean with soap. “So, what’s the problem? Something about the mission?”
“In a sense,” Sai lowered his eyes. “I’m having troubles because I can’t show emotions on my face properly during the sex scenes.”
Tenzou took a moment to comprehend the words. “Uh-And-It’s something bad? I don’t think the watchers would be that focused on your face anyway.”
“It’s not funny,” Sai raised an eyebrow. “If I lose my work because of it, it would be impossible for me to get closer to Madara.”
“Well, of course-I’m just surprised that acting skills are actually important in the porn industry--” Tenzou shrugged. “So, what kind of expressions do you make?”
“I don’t know, I guess none. The director told me that I look like Forrest Gump.”
Tenzou couldn’t help but laugh.
Sai frowned.
Maybe talking about it to him wasn’t a good idea…
“Aehm-Sorry, but that’s an amusing image--” Tenzou returned to the serious guy he was supposed to be. “Anyway, why don’t you show emotions..? Is it because you don’t like having sex with strangers?”
Sai was about to laugh. As if he didn’t have sex with strangers before. “It’s not that, it’s just like… I mean, when I’m there the look on my face is the last thing I care about.”
“It’s obvious, your mind is focused on the emotions--”
“E-Emotions?” Sai looked a little confused.
“Yes, you know… You’re having sex with someone. Pleasure, relaxation, that kind of thing. Focusing on them should be enough to give you the proper expression. What do you usually focus on while having sex?”
“On pleasing my partner.”
“W-You mean you don’t like it…?”
“Of course I do,” Sai smiled, as if he was talking to someone retarded. “I start with the need to please my partner, then when I feel him liking it I start to like it too. I did the same at work, but something felt off. The other actors liked having sex with me and it felt good, but there was something I couldn’t--”
“-Maybe it’s because you were being recorded--? Like, having people watching you and recording your performance. Maybe you’re uneasy about it.”
“Yeah… Maybe… What can I do to overcome it?”
Tenzou thought about it for a little, then shrugged “I have no idea… Maybe you should talk about it with the other actors, they could give you some useful tips.”
Sai nodded.
That was a good idea.