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[tomhxprt]

I'm not sure if I should even write in here but right now but at this point I don't know what else to do

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[ex_oldwhores146]

I've already talked to you and everything, but I still like the idea of writing to him. It sounds good to me, anyway. If you don't and you want him to know how you feel, then you might not get another chance if you don't go ahead and do it. That sounds horrible but i'm not trying to be a Negative Nancy (?), i'm just trying to tell you that the option is there (as you obviously know since you are the one who first mentioned it), and if you decide you can't see him in person then you should write.

um...*talks on AIM* I'm not good at this here, not that I am in the first place. :p

[tomhxprt]

I'm sure that's what I will end up doing, writing to him. I guess part of me is hoping I don't have to, like maybe he'll get out on probation or something?

It's stupid because as much as this is bothering me, if I had the money to bail him out I don't think I would, which makes no sense to me really.

<3 you :-/

[stizznatic]

Hmm, don't really know what to say, except to say that I've gotten myself into the wrong crowds too, although I didn't do anything hardcore or anything. I'm so sorry that this has happened to you, and again I do'nt know all the circumstances or anything, but things will get better, have faith in it. I can say that because i've been through hell and back in the last year, and things are JUST starting to look up. I have so much faith that you can quit your habits, and if you like this guy so much I guess you're going to have to tell him. Just because you had bad habits that he picked up, so what? My ex bf's brother and his wife were on heroin and everyone said they'd never be able to make it clean together, but they did, they are still in love, so there . I do'nt know if any of this has any relevance, but at least I tried.

[tomhxprt]

I know what you mean, I know things are going to get better but as of right now that's not enough? It's all really complicated and I don't know what I should do. I know what I want to do and what i think i should do but I really don't know what I should do... if that makes sense?

I've read some of what you've gone through and I know it was alot, if anything it's kind of inspiring to know but at the same time I just want the bad to be over with.

I really doubt anything will come with the two of us but I do know that I want him to know how I feel I just don't know when and how, to get through to him.

I don't think I couuld bring myself to say it to him in prison... I mean I've never had to do anything like this but I know I sure as hell don't want to tell him through a glass wall.

It's just toooo much to think about and I just want it to be over, or to never have happened.

[stizznatic]

Dennis you are stronger than you think. Honestly you CAN do it. You WILL do it if you want.

Yes, don't tell him in prison. I'm thinking the letter idea is sounding good about now.

[tomhxprt]

I've been writing the letter and I'm just not sure what to say and how to say it. I don't know if he's going to be stuck in there for 10 years or out tommorow, well odds are not tomorrow but you know what I mean?

From what I recently found out he can get letters but you can't mention alot of things, which I would suspect but I still don't know how to put what I want to say. Not to mention I can't leave a return address on it because I live with my parents still and they wouldn't be too happy seeing a letter from a prison coming to me.

I wish I knew more about it, I e-mailed a person through the inmate website and hopefully i'll be able to find out more, because right now I still don't know enough to make a choice on what I want to do or say.

[thesicktruth]

(Forgive me, I'm not too familiar with your situation or how you're feeling, exactly, but I'm going to try my best

[tomhxprt]

What you're sayin does make sense, thanks for putting that much thought into it.

I've been debating the seeing someone about it thing, but honestly it won't do much, I know what I have to do or more so what my choices are. No one's going to be able to snap their fingers and say it's not a problem anymore ya know?

I think it's just going to take some time and clearing my head and all that fun crap :-/

I hope ya got my IM earlier btw...

[thesicktruth]

But you don't go see someone to snap their fingers and your problems go away. You go to someone because you need the support when the road to recovery gets really hard. But the longer you procrastinate going down that road, the bumpier that road gets.