welcome back to chicago todd,

we've dropped the temperature for you and completely blotted out the sun, this way we can really drive home how miserable cold and depressed your going to be this winter.
We're hoping that with Vegas fresh in your mind you'll really spiral into a deep depression.

best of luck,
the management.

he stumbles in unsure of himself holding a white piece of paper, being careful not to crumple it. He is overweight and short. His head is capped with a baseball style hat adorned with silver flames. His shirt is dirty and hugs his belly tightly while hanging loose in the sleeves and at the back. His pants are faded black, almost brown and on his ( Read more... )

a raccoon sat beneath my legs while we were camping. unafraid of me and me unafraid of him. we hung out a moment and then i showed my girlfriend and she was also unafraid. and then we decided we needed his picture. which ruined everything. i also gave him a hot dog.. which he seemed to appreciate.

laying in each others arms at the edge of a waterfall
running in fear as the sun retreated
walking side by side slowly in a downpour
flying side by side down the streets of chicago
laying on the beach, limbs intertwined, with the sun warming our bodies
watching the sun set, standing in the water, lining her up with the sun. watching her skin

I win.

my problem is i lived a whole life and i was unhappy. there were amazing things along the way but where i ended up i was unhappy. and now i feel lost and confused about what i am aiming for. what i am living in pursuit of.

maybe i do, but it doesn't matter so what is the point.
in reality it only matters if it is reciprocated, and i firmly believe that it is not.
if unreciprocated it transforms from something grand to something muddy and confusing.
i don't want to trudge through mud. i don't want to wander confused.

Lately all I think about are friends back home, times I had in the past and the life I used to lead.

So I started seeing this girl.
She is really smart and well traveled and we seem to connect well.
Yesterday she and I decide to hang out, and she takes me to the Hemingway museum and birthplace.

I'm trying not to make the situation too significant, but something is going on. And it's kind of great.

WINTER IS COMING.