you must be somewhere in london, you must be loving your life in the rain

[tipsytoe]

i am not sure why i held back this entry for a while, but i have been thinking about this for a long time now. since i can't seem to fall asleep at the moment, i may as well start writing about this

Comments

[eyeslikefirefly]

I understand you feeling guilty because I feel the same way about my kitty Raven. I noticed a lump on her belly one day and took her to the vet, but the stupid vet couldn't even figure out what it was. Raven started to rot away very slowly and I selfishly kept her that way for too long. I still have no idea what was literally eating away at her body. It still hurts so badly to think of how I kept her that way and the day I basically had to shove her in her cage and make my brother take her to the vet to be put out of her pain. I should have told her I loved her more and treated her better as I was trying to get her into the cage. I should have gone with and said my goodbyes...

We shouldn't feel guilty, but I know we just can't help it. Our kitties couldn't even tell us what was wrong, they just kept living on as they could because it's all they know- to live. I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope we can both figure out a way to find some acceptance and forgive ourselves. T_T *a million hugs*

[pearlsphere]

Words cannot tell how sad I am for your loss. I know I should have gone with Tammy (my beagle) the day of her tumor surgery. But sleeping in seemed more important. As she approached to me that morning while I was under the sheets, to say goodbyes so my mum could take her to the vet, I didn't feel for a second it was the last time I was going to see her alive. It still kills me, even though there could have been nothing I could have done for her. I hope Lord gives you the strength to look at that window and not feel guilty. You are a great pet owner, a great human being, even greater than most pple ever were. *hugs*

[angelamori]

oh Dee... *hugs*

[orangerobots]

I'm terribly sorry to hear about your loss. As I read this, I began tearing because it reminded me of Bingo whom I lost some years ago but still miss dearly. The pain will always be very real, but I sincerely hope that you will find the strength within you not to feel guilty. As your friend mentioned above, I think you're a great owner. And Rusty was very fortunate to have had you. (hug)

[outside_my_box]

I'm so sorry to hear about this Dee. I wish you'd be able to let go of that guilt someday and just keep the memory of Rusty alive.