An Inevitability

[tinhuviel]

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[foreverharley]

Ah your youth experience reminds me of the time I went to church services with my girl scout troop during a camping outing we were on, and being a Catholic church since that was the leader's faith, as well as apparently every girl but me, I was anticipating the communion. I even prayed beforehand that god would forgive me if it should be wrong to do this since I wasn't a Catholic, but somehow I still felt it symbolic of something. So as it comes time, I start to stand up with everyone, only to be chastised publicly by the troop leader who doesn't even look at me directly but rather past me to say to everyone else I wouldn't be going up with them. My heart was broken at that moment. I was preparing myself for some holy experience, only to be crushed completely. Now the girls are all looking at each other and whispering, some looking behind as they excuse themselves passed me in the pew. This moment that was supposed to be about fellowship and love, and they leave a girl utterly humiliated.

[tinhuviel]

See, that's where religion invades spirituality and slaughters it. That was a real bitchy thing to do.

[evcelt]

I respect your choice.

But I'm still going to keep you in my prayers unless you ask me otherwise...

[tinhuviel]

Thanks deario. I'm glad you think enough of me to want to do that, but I'd prefer you didn't. Please don't be offended.

[evcelt]

Sure thing. No offense taken.

[falkenna]

Yes, it's easy to lose faith in a being powerful enough to do anything about this mess - I certainly did, long ago. That's not how I see them, but that's not to say I'm convinced they are more than some corner of my own mind. But I'm not sure what you mean by "ascent"; that should be just for you, and it is human nature to get there eventually - which is not to say that every individual does. I only hope that you can find a way to close off some of the horror you can't help (to close off all of it would make you shallow and callous)and carve a little corner of happiness - and peace with yourself, which is where spirituality (an inner response concerning you in the universe, no gods required) comes in. I think it's all any of us can really hope for, when we rip away the curtains and face the truth. There is a lot of beauty, goodness and wonder; it's just best not even to try to weigh the scales.