Yesterday is Today
Title: Yesterday is Today
Author: timmii_luvs
Pairing: Kyuhyun/Yesung
Rating: G
Genre: Angst, Fluff, Romance, AU, Friendship
Length: Oneshot
Author's Note: Read this fic right hurr called Falling Down Like Snow by kotahcola This is basically Kyuhyun's side of the story
Summary: Yesterday never seem so much of a contradiction to Kyuhyun like it does today
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Yesterday, he cried. He cried for his parents, he cried for his sister, he cried for himself. Because yesterday, his parents lost their daughter to the big world, full of love and heartbreak. Because there is a hand on his back rubbing circles and comforting him. A reminder that his face is supposed to be steeled, a bright smile painted on his face at this happy event. But he can’t, so he uses a cover of ‘happy’ tears as he weeps and wipes his soul free of the pain for a short while. He cried because he was well aware that he had to live another day without him in his life. He cried until his voice was hoarse, his singing wavered and his eyes dulled. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun cracked.
Yesterday, he cried. His shoulders shook, and his body racked. Frail arms wrapped around him, seeming to be the most powerful things in the world at the moment. They calmed him, shushing his pitiful, heartbreaking sobs. Rocked him till he felt himself begin to surrender to his dreams, exhausted. The shirt of the other was soaked through with Kyuhyun’s sorrow, but without so much as a glance, Kyuhyun finds himself tucked in and with a fleeting thought he thinks about yesterday. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun locked away his heart.
Yesterday, he cried. He woke up to fresh home cooking, tears clinging for dear life to his eyelashes. He hadn’t known when he slipped away into darkness, but now he did. Even in his dreams he couldn’t escape the tears and heartache. So he shuffled downstairs into steady arms. Name on the tip of his lips, only his sobs blocked it. But he understood. Ryeowook always understood. He understood that his younger friend wanted to know. Needed to know why he left him. But Ryeowook would only shake his head, seemingly clueless as he allowed the man to sob ungracefully. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun broke.
Yesterday, he cried. He cried after watching friend after friend come and go, leaving with worry and sadness etched into their faces. The male had been unresponsive to all who tried. He simply watched as they all tried their best to bring him back. Him, his eyes, his smirk, and his voice. But he simply watches from that little lost corner of his mind that he calls his haven, curling up and ignoring because he’s not sure how much more he can take. Because everyday has been yesterday since he left. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun died.
Yesterday, he cried. He cried because he said to himself that he couldn’t cry, not until he found someone else. This would be the last time he allowed his tears to fall because of that man, although inside, he knew it was a lie. But he cried, locked in his room till late at night when he emerges, gathering in the scarred faces and with a deep breath he smiles. Shaky, but a smile none the less and his friends all know, it’s a baby step further. But it’s a baby step worth making. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun was revived.
Yesterday, he cried. He cried because he sung again. Sung his soul and eyes clean. Sung his voice hoarse, cracked and his throat parched dry. Because that was him. It was him, is him, and will always be him. It is him, Cho Kyuhyun, and him alone. He then met Sungmin in the heart of the park, the pink bunny tumbling out from behind a tree. And he laughed. Cho Kyuhyun laughed again. Two hours and many exchanged words later, he found himself on a bus seat with an address of a café, a new number in his phone and a smile on his face. He’s going to sin. Perform. It may just be in a small café but people will see him. He is going to soar with the help of his voice. He’s just so happy, he starts to cry. But he’s happy, and that’s all that matters. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun unlocked the door.
Yesterday, he cried. Step unsteady, he stepped down from the platform. They had locked eyes, and he flew. Without a doubt, he had to meet that man. That man with the raven hair, and coffee brown eyes. The one who made him cry tears he had not been expecting. The man who forced him to his knees without even knowing. He was just so beautiful. Kyuhyun had to know him. Had to try. And so he was sprinting with all his heart, trying to reach up with the man. To ask his name. To hang out some time. To start anew. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun unraveled his heart from the chains.
But today, he loves, Waking up to a steady breathing and warm skin, whispering confessions to and from. Legs tangled and voices dancing. Kyuhyun knows this man may leave but something tells him that Jongwoon, his Kim Jongwoon, won’t leave him. Because here they are, hand in hand, shielding from the cold as they watch their friends gather. The café couples Jungsu and Youngwoon, Heechul and HanGeng, their favorite bright faces foreigners, Henry and ZhouMi, as well as Sungmin bouncing up to his hamster and planting a loving kiss. Donghae and Hyukjae somehow manage to dance battle their way over, Donghee and Kibum providing the background music. Siwon then walks over, smile bright and fulfilling, closing the group. They’re playing in the falling snow. It’s the first snow of the year and all Kyuhyun feels and tastes are Jongwoon’s lips. Today, Cho Kyuhyun can whisper, “I love you.”
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GASP! Half year comeback fic after my unannounced hiatus xD My bad >______________>
Anyways, I hope you all liked this and that it did you proud kotahcola! :D
I really don't have much to say here (No rambling? What? o_o ) But I already have some ideas down for Ryeowook's side so the chances of me writing it are rather high :) But if I don't write and post it, then it's probably because I'm testing, cramming in spending time with my friends or I've already left traveling >.> But I definitely will try for another fic before I leave on vacation
PS I'm thinking of getting one of the following: Tumblr, Twitter or Formspring :/ I already have a tumblr but like I don't use it so I think it would be better to get a new one xP Keep people updated on fanfiction and my novel xD (and all the clothes I'm going to make xDDDDD //shot )
Poll Kthxsbai~
Ignore the messy tags >< I'm fixing them up at the moment
Author: timmii_luvs
Pairing: Kyuhyun/Yesung
Rating: G
Genre: Angst, Fluff, Romance, AU, Friendship
Length: Oneshot
Author's Note: Read this fic right hurr called Falling Down Like Snow by kotahcola This is basically Kyuhyun's side of the story
Summary: Yesterday never seem so much of a contradiction to Kyuhyun like it does today
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Yesterday, he cried. He cried for his parents, he cried for his sister, he cried for himself. Because yesterday, his parents lost their daughter to the big world, full of love and heartbreak. Because there is a hand on his back rubbing circles and comforting him. A reminder that his face is supposed to be steeled, a bright smile painted on his face at this happy event. But he can’t, so he uses a cover of ‘happy’ tears as he weeps and wipes his soul free of the pain for a short while. He cried because he was well aware that he had to live another day without him in his life. He cried until his voice was hoarse, his singing wavered and his eyes dulled. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun cracked.
Yesterday, he cried. His shoulders shook, and his body racked. Frail arms wrapped around him, seeming to be the most powerful things in the world at the moment. They calmed him, shushing his pitiful, heartbreaking sobs. Rocked him till he felt himself begin to surrender to his dreams, exhausted. The shirt of the other was soaked through with Kyuhyun’s sorrow, but without so much as a glance, Kyuhyun finds himself tucked in and with a fleeting thought he thinks about yesterday. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun locked away his heart.
Yesterday, he cried. He woke up to fresh home cooking, tears clinging for dear life to his eyelashes. He hadn’t known when he slipped away into darkness, but now he did. Even in his dreams he couldn’t escape the tears and heartache. So he shuffled downstairs into steady arms. Name on the tip of his lips, only his sobs blocked it. But he understood. Ryeowook always understood. He understood that his younger friend wanted to know. Needed to know why he left him. But Ryeowook would only shake his head, seemingly clueless as he allowed the man to sob ungracefully. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun broke.
Yesterday, he cried. He cried after watching friend after friend come and go, leaving with worry and sadness etched into their faces. The male had been unresponsive to all who tried. He simply watched as they all tried their best to bring him back. Him, his eyes, his smirk, and his voice. But he simply watches from that little lost corner of his mind that he calls his haven, curling up and ignoring because he’s not sure how much more he can take. Because everyday has been yesterday since he left. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun died.
Yesterday, he cried. He cried because he said to himself that he couldn’t cry, not until he found someone else. This would be the last time he allowed his tears to fall because of that man, although inside, he knew it was a lie. But he cried, locked in his room till late at night when he emerges, gathering in the scarred faces and with a deep breath he smiles. Shaky, but a smile none the less and his friends all know, it’s a baby step further. But it’s a baby step worth making. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun was revived.
Yesterday, he cried. He cried because he sung again. Sung his soul and eyes clean. Sung his voice hoarse, cracked and his throat parched dry. Because that was him. It was him, is him, and will always be him. It is him, Cho Kyuhyun, and him alone. He then met Sungmin in the heart of the park, the pink bunny tumbling out from behind a tree. And he laughed. Cho Kyuhyun laughed again. Two hours and many exchanged words later, he found himself on a bus seat with an address of a café, a new number in his phone and a smile on his face. He’s going to sin. Perform. It may just be in a small café but people will see him. He is going to soar with the help of his voice. He’s just so happy, he starts to cry. But he’s happy, and that’s all that matters. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun unlocked the door.
Yesterday, he cried. Step unsteady, he stepped down from the platform. They had locked eyes, and he flew. Without a doubt, he had to meet that man. That man with the raven hair, and coffee brown eyes. The one who made him cry tears he had not been expecting. The man who forced him to his knees without even knowing. He was just so beautiful. Kyuhyun had to know him. Had to try. And so he was sprinting with all his heart, trying to reach up with the man. To ask his name. To hang out some time. To start anew. Yesterday, Cho Kyuhyun unraveled his heart from the chains.
But today, he loves, Waking up to a steady breathing and warm skin, whispering confessions to and from. Legs tangled and voices dancing. Kyuhyun knows this man may leave but something tells him that Jongwoon, his Kim Jongwoon, won’t leave him. Because here they are, hand in hand, shielding from the cold as they watch their friends gather. The café couples Jungsu and Youngwoon, Heechul and HanGeng, their favorite bright faces foreigners, Henry and ZhouMi, as well as Sungmin bouncing up to his hamster and planting a loving kiss. Donghae and Hyukjae somehow manage to dance battle their way over, Donghee and Kibum providing the background music. Siwon then walks over, smile bright and fulfilling, closing the group. They’re playing in the falling snow. It’s the first snow of the year and all Kyuhyun feels and tastes are Jongwoon’s lips. Today, Cho Kyuhyun can whisper, “I love you.”
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GASP! Half year comeback fic after my unannounced hiatus xD My bad >______________>
Anyways, I hope you all liked this and that it did you proud kotahcola! :D
I really don't have much to say here (No rambling? What? o_o ) But I already have some ideas down for Ryeowook's side so the chances of me writing it are rather high :) But if I don't write and post it, then it's probably because I'm testing, cramming in spending time with my friends or I've already left traveling >.> But I definitely will try for another fic before I leave on vacation
PS I'm thinking of getting one of the following: Tumblr, Twitter or Formspring :/ I already have a tumblr but like I don't use it so I think it would be better to get a new one xP Keep people updated on fanfiction and my novel xD (and all the clothes I'm going to make xDDDDD //shot )
Poll Kthxsbai~
Ignore the messy tags >< I'm fixing them up at the moment