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[timesbureaucrat]

[Wardens Who Used to Be Inmates Filter]

If you don't mind my asking, how did you graduate? What changed? Was it a moment of epiphany or a gradual shift in understanding?

I need to be reminded that rehabilitation is possible. [He decides that sounds too needy and pathetic, so he edits it out before posting.]It seems it's always one step forward

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[rass_bestie]

A little of both, to be honest. And yes, it feels that way… Rassilon coming on board and my… certainty about my personal identity, helped. You helped. I suppose having a firm idea of what needs changing and why gave me a checklist of what to get past.

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[timesbureaucrat]

Me? How did I help? [Narvin thinks that rehabilitation is...well...not something one learns in the CIA and not really one of his strengths.]

So, the first step to your graduation was understanding why you were an inmate and believing that it was indeed a problem to be corrected?

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[rass_bestie]

Consider what I was here for, Narvin. Wanting my people utterly destroyed was one of them. Your very presence here, the feeling of making your quake in my presence felt, unsatisfying, and you are a good friend to me.

I wanted to be good to Adric. So I decided to read my file and take the process seriously. I didn't always have an idea of what I was doing but I felt that if I set certain rules for myself, follow them diligently, then I would eventually graduate.

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[timesbureaucrat]

I'm glad my fear could be of assistance. [He says dryly, but with a slight smile.]

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[most_feared]

[Kay does come and and sheds his suit jacket, goes to his computer, starts uploading from his communicator, and then sets down on the arm of the couch to... play with his fish. Yes, his fish.

Lionfish are very attentive predators, and intelligent as far as fish go. So Kay is hunkered over his tank, staring into it with the lid up as he drags along a piece of krill with a pair of tweezers. Through the water.

He's half ignoring Narvin because he's stewing for much the same reasons Narvin is, and he's only barely aware there's a tea smell. He just has the fish swimming in circles along the side. Finally it even goes to the top to spit water in demand of its food.

That's when Kay decides to let the fish have it and finally pay attention to Narvin.] Is that your good set?

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[timesbureaucrat]

[He watches Kay play with the fish, brow creased in concern. But when Kay turns to him, he immediately clears his expression.]

Oh, yes, I suppose it is. [He says as if he honestly didn't notice before that instead of putting out the usual one-pot-and-two-cups, he's got a 17-piece silver and china set arrayed on the table. He can't quite bring himself to openly admit that it's part of a scheme to cheer Kay up. He clears his throat, a bit embarrassed that obvious lie is so very very obvious.]

Tea?

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[most_feared]

[He stars at the very expensive tea set, and oozes down into the floor to sit across from Narvin where he can have a cup.]

I think I'm going to let Chromie take over the library... [He was about to drink. Almost. And then stops with it near his lips.] I don't need to get in another dickwaving contest over it. She can protect the books and I don't have shit to prove.

[He just... really likes information. And liked working with information and compiling information and being around information. It seemed like a good way to spend his time but-] It turned out more trouble than it was worth.

[He's still not taken a sip yet.]

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[timesbureaucrat]

Those damned books are a nightmare.

[He takes a sip of tea.]

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Since you haven't officially resigned from your library duties yet, I probably shouldn't tell you how tempted I am to digitize the whole thing, make all the books available on everybody's communicator so no one can control, threaten, or worship them, then vaporize the whole room.

[He notices Kay...not drinking the tea. He frowns.]

I didn't drug it. [Well, he put a bit of whisky in the tea, but nothing illicit.]

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[you_run_i_chase]

A little of both.

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[timesbureaucrat]

Would you mind expanding on that?

[And after a few nanospans he realizes that his nosiness might come across as rude.]

...I don't mean to pry. I simply wish to hear about the experience from the other side, so I can understand the process better.

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[you_run_i_chase]

I had a slow change and then there was an plateau where I kept fucking waiting to graduate and then I ended up having an epiphany.

It was... well, fucking long.

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[timesbureaucrat]

Would you say there was a turning point when you wanted to change and wanted to graduate?

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[timesbureaucrat]

How did that help?

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[emptyyourself]

I am replying only to note that I have seen your question.

While there are a good many things I am willing to discuss about my time as an inmate, this is not one of them.

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[timesbureaucrat]

Understood. I imagine it's a very...personal experience.