Comments | thoughtdevil: Life is madness.

thoughtdevil

Life is madness.

Sep 23, 2004 14:17

I'm so exhausted. I'm so scared. It is getting harder and harder to carry on from day to day. And just when I think I've got a handle on things. Just when I think I'm closing my grip and stabalizing, things take a turn for the worst ( Read more... )

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nancyblue September 23 2004, 19:12:40 UTC

You caught my cold? No fair. I didn't even kiss you or anything ( ... )

kimjimtim September 24 2004, 23:23:40 UTC

"I'm scared to death Mom is losing her mind. I've read my sister's journal and it really has me frightened. My mother has always had this detachment from her children, despite everything she says to the contrary. She has no reservations about ripping our feelings to shreds. I blame that on our grandmother, who did the same thing to her. Mom is vicious and hurtful and it makes me ashamed how vindictive and pety she is. And it makes me furious and scared shitless that my sister is thousands of miles away suffering and I can't do a damn thing about it. I want nothing more than to help her ( ... )

thoughtdevil September 25 2004, 03:16:32 UTC

I thought I was supposed to be the one to help calm you down, sista. I'm feeling much better. I've got my strength back. My head has cleared. I didn't go see any doctor. Health care facilities here aren't too sharp. I'd rather die out in the street where someone can at least FIND my ass.

You're right. We are in trouble. We just gotta hang in there. I'll keep things up on my end. Try to stay anchored on yours. Don't try to rescue the parents. Just worry about yourself right now, and I'll do the same. Don't ever think of hurting yourself again. I don't know how I'd react, but it wouldn't be good for anyone.

funkyjazzmonkey September 25 2004, 02:15:29 UTC

Youmight feel like you're somewhere between escaping the sinking ship and trying to save the people on it at the same time. Don't forget the distance invovled, and with that the fact long distance worrying won't help; focus on your daily routine - you're almost out of here! Your graduating should certainly help take off some tension, give a breath of relief to the family. Oner less egg in their basket that they need no longer worry about breaking.

And you can always snap a neck if necessary.