i can't be in this apartment right now but if i go anywhere i'll risk bursting into tears in public ( Read more... )

our two year anniversary was monday. it's kinda hard to believe that it's been two years... it feels like we've been together for so much longer, and at the same time it seems to have flown right by ( Read more... )

i am fat, unattractive, and boring.

i cry a lot for no reason; when it is appropriate to cry, when i need to cry, no tears will come.

i have become rather accustomed to the hot prickle of shame at the back of my neck.

i still don't have a job and it's making me crazy.

in a few hours i will be in a car stuffed full with as much of my life as can fit into someone else's, with my boyfriend, driving down to columbia ( Read more... )

"and I say this
as I know how to say this
immediately
you will see my present body
burst into fragments
and remake itself
under then thousand notorious aspects
a new body
where you will
never forget me."

evidently i no longer require sleep. isn't that delightful ( Read more... )

College: Wherein one discovers one will do anything (regardless of legality) to complete one's assignments.

Ocracoke Island for 4th of July 2008??
Sounds fucking awesome to me!
Here's to hoping I can get off work and the price of gas doesn't get too high.

if alan alda is my conscience ((see entry from 06 march 2008)), then eve 6 is my inner monologue.

"at least i'm breathing
at least i'm alive
as long as i'm dreaming
everything's gonna be all right"