What I packed....

[thirteenrocks]

Don't feel like doing much than being a bump on a pickle today. My only goal to accomplish is finishing up some swaps that are lurking in the studio, staring me with beaty eyes...I'll procrastinate for now....Prior to leaving for D.C. I wanted to pack something of me. Something of myself, as a sort of "show and tell" if you will. A piece of

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[memyselfeye]

this is beautiful. and so you are.

as a smart man once said: you can always connect the dots looking back.

i'm glad you found the good in an upsetting situation.
you are very strong, and being able to turn things around and see the bright side is all anyone could ever hope for.
thank you for sharing this part of you with us.

[thirteenrocks]

Your welcome. Incidently, your the reason why I dove into the situation to begin with, back in 2004. You had asked who kara was, and it went downhill from there 8-).

Yes, it was a hurtful upsetting situation, connecting the dots, it proves to me at least how everything is connected and everything happens for a reason...

[jade_athyst]

Thank you for sharing some of your most precious memories. I thought of two songs when I read the last part of your entry.

God forgive the corniness, but: 'Just remember, in the winter, far beneath the bitter snow, lies the seed that with the sun's love, in the Spring, becomes the Rose'

The other is one of my absolute favorites, 'Iris', by the Goo Goo dolls. The lyrics touch on feelings we've both had over the years.

Your welcome

[thirteenrocks]

Your welcome. Its very cathartic to talk about. I just listened to Iris, and it's so amazing. I remember hearing that song in the movie "City of Angels" and its so f.ckin fantastic.

[boogersugar]

I am angry at her for taking away pulling away from the friendship without asking my opinon first.
Boy can I identify with that! Unfortunately, I often feel like I have two holes in my life because two very close friends ultimately chose bizarre relationships over our friendships and one was my best friend for 8 years. The worst part for me is that I feel like I haven't gotten that closure and both relationships ended with people who I loved turning into uncaring robots on me.
I read your Kara situation in detail and I'm amazed at how you were able to take those things and purge a hurtful person from your life. Sure, maybe there were signs, but even so, when you care so much about someone you will always hope that those signs are wrong.

[thirteenrocks]

I truely will never have pure closure. It took me about 4 years to fully get over the situation. When I met allan, and there were some inter-connections indirectly with the kara situation, did I truely feel that yes, this major hole, negative part of my life, blosseumed into something beutiful, actually allan reall didn't have much to do with it. It was more so with meeting the singer of the song that Kara and I bonded over. THANK you so much for reading the novela, It means alot!

[thespian15]

Sounds like you picked the right thing to pack.
I do hope it didn't drag up to many painful memories?
Hugs, Jon