Clarity

[thewishfire]

Ahaha... I'm so glad to be back to normal now. Nikki gave Sulpher a Kittynip toy to play with, and it started affecting everyone who was pacted with us, but especially me, and... ah, I'm just so relieved it's over

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[tailconcerto]

Ah, I'm really sorry you got messed up.... I just didn't think about it, yanno? I figured it's fine for Sulpher, and I totally forgot you'd feel anything through the pact....

I'm glad Flaya was able to fix you up, at least....

[thewishfire]

It's fine, Nikki... it wasn't your fault.... And it gave me the chance to make this observation, anyway. I learnt something.

[tailconcerto]

Gave you the chance to make this observation.... Nyaha. You really are just like this about everything, aren't you.... You don't mind.... You don't see any fault in anyone. Because there's nothing there, nothing that matters. You just see what's important and everything else melts away....

[thewishfire]

Mm. That's right. That's what I am.... And I'm so happy, now, that I get the chance to live this way.

Thank you, all of you... for accepting me as I am. For helping me to have this.

[strivinghigher]

Despite my surprising behaviour at the party when we had firewater, I'm no stranger to it. I had a lot that night, and Vayne... well, Vayne was becoming something special. But in fact, though I think this might sound shocking to some people, I first tried it when I was eight years old. I think my father thought it would motivate me towards alchemy, not that I really needed the motivation, as it happened. And although I haven't been very social with it in the past, I am rather fond of it. I don't think it would make any difference for me now, not the way I feel at present, though. I can already see so much... so, so much

[thewishfire]

Yeah... I don't think it would do anything for me either, now. I think we have all the clarity we can have... we can see everything... it's just a case of truly understanding what it is, now, that lies in front of us....

And speaking from that clarity... of course you're not wrong about that. Of course you wouldn't take it back. That's only something people do when they've seen things imperfectly.... You see, now, as much as you can see. You know the truth. And you'll never go back on that.

[strivinghigher]

I do. I think some people might think "you can't know if you haven't tried it", but that's only because they haven't tried this. At which point they would know, because that's what it is.

Al-Revis is really different from mainland schools in this regard (like in so many others)... People up here mostly have either seen enough to feel like they want to be clear, or they've heard from other people who have seen enough, so they want to strive towards that and not get sidetracked by muddling themselves up... And the firewater is so much better than anything else they might try.

[exceedinglife]

Wow, eight years old? And I thought I was young.... I was 12 when I first tried it, but... ahehehe, my parents didn't give it to me, I made it myself. It was one of those things I experimented with, always wanting to know more, always wanting to see more... the way I'd keep trying harder and harder syntheses, just to push myself, to get into that exalted space, I'd try firewater and other things just to try and see even more clearly....

I personally found it kind of distracted me if I used it too much, though. I'd see everything all at once, but then I wouldn't feel like I needed to push forward any more, and I didn't like that. I worried I was going to get a bit reliant on it, so I stopped using it privately. But I've always been up for a little every now and then just to be social.