LJ Idol Season 9, Week 15: Chekhov's Gun

[theun4givables]

Alicia apologizes for the number of fucks in this piece“So tell me a bit more about your characters -- Jazz and Savin, was it?” Dr A starts, leaning back in his armchair. He steeples his fingers together and stares at me expectantly

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[redqueenofevil]

When you first introduced Mitchel into the story, I thought he was supposed to be Ev.

Hugs. I'm glad you are safe now.

[theun4givables]

It literally took me until a couple of months ago for me to realize the Ev = Mitchel connection. Mitchel was introduced like, almost two years ago? Three years ago? Ugh lol

I actually made the realization when I realized Jazz and Savin represented the two sides of me -- the side of me that wants to believe Evelyn (Mitchel) isn't evil (Jazz), and the side of me that knows the truth and is still powerless against her (Savin).

But I'm glad I'm not the only one who has made this connection, even if it took me forever to see it. <3 I'm glad that I'm safe, now, too.

[dmousey]

Lovessss youuuuuu <3 <3 <3. If I write a real reply, there would be a lot of fucks in it too, and not directed at you.... hugggsss

[theun4givables]

<3

Notice that most of those fucks aren't mine, though. ;)

[bleodswean]

It's amazing how you're deconstructing your own characters! Tightly written and the back-and-forth dialogue is sharp.

[theun4givables]

I've been working on deconstructing them (ALL of them, not just the ones from Gray Morning) for a loooong time. It's embarrassing how long it took me to make the Ev = Mitchel connection. Probably because Mitchel's a much better Narcissist than she is (he's way smarter).

Thank you. :) I tried to make the dialogue as true-to-life as possible, so I'm glad that the dialogue works well.

[fodschwazzle]

A rather chilling turn around. So in control only to find that the worst situation is reality. In truth, I could use a little more context here, but I see that it goes way back and is wide open for perusal.

Fantastic and hard-to-take story. For non-fiction especially, if flows very well.

[theun4givables]

"Goes way back," is a little bit of an understatement. The therapy session described above probably happened in late 2012. The incident that caused me to flee to a hotel room to think on whether I wanted to stay with my (now ex) wife was May of last year. Sarah asked me those questions sometime after that (don't remember the date).

The conversation between myself and Evelyn took place in early May, this year. I was a little worried that there might be too little context -- but I also only wanted to include the details that mattered, and it was Sarah's suggestion that I not mention explicitly what it was Evelyn did to cause me to ruminate in a hotel room -- because she wanted me to wait and show what she was TRULY like, in the final section.

Thank you. :) It's been a hard reality for me to really see and understand, the past 13 months or so. And I'm glad that it flows! Non-fiction and I are not necessarily friends. ;) Especially not 1st Person non-fiction.

[eternal_ot]

*HUGS*..glad that tough times are way behind..As far as writing is concerned, I liked this dissection of thoughts and characters..and the late realization of something that you knew all along subconsciously.Good job!

[theun4givables]

They're actually not that far behind -- the last section was May of this year, I juuuuust escaped her house, etc. But I'm on the path to healing and moving forward, which is very important. :)

Thanks! My understanding of my characters is important to me; if i don't get where they came from, I have a hard time writing them at times. :) I just wish I caught the Mitchel = Evelyn connection sooner. It explains SO much.