LJ Idol Season 9, Week 03, In Another Castle

[theun4givables]

Some part of her wants to compare it to Deployments One through Three: the sudden sinking feeling in her stomach at the news, and how her stomach remains in her shoes as it gets closer to Day One. Except with deployments, she knew there would be an expiration date, a date where her ex would (hopefully) come home. This -- this is different. This won

Comments

[i_will_not_say]

This was both sad and sweet. You captured the emotions well in this piece.

[theun4givables]

Thank you. :)

(Maybe next week I'll write fiction! Maybe...)

[i_love_freddie]

Awww, very sad. I could really relate to this.

[theun4givables]

Thank you. :) I'm sorry you can relate, though.

[i_love_freddie]

Sadly it is the curse of the long distance relationship. I love him so much but there are only two choices at the moment; be with him knowing that I have to share him with his job, or end it. It's very hard.

[theun4givables]

I can imagine. =/ I am still not sure what my feelings are and this might just be us trying to resolve a tension that's followed us around for over a decade -- whether it'll go anywhere (I doubt it), I don't know. But I'm still willing to see what happens.

[solstice_singer]

It's hard to let those we love make their own decisions, especially if they happen to be decisions we disagree with for some reason.

[theun4givables]

I don't necessarily disagree with Joe's decision to move -- I didn't disagree with Ev's decision to join the Marine Corps, either. It's just hard watching Joe go, even though I know it'll be good for him.

[kecharasmoon]

If I didn't know I didn't write this, I'd be sure I had - I went through something much the same not so long ago.

[theun4givables]

How'd things work out for you guys? And hah, I've had that feeling once or twice reading LJI entries before. :)

[kecharasmoon]

He lives in Vancouver with my other ex best friend. We talk on rare occasions, but are starting to become close again.

[theun4givables]

Ah, I see. :) Well, hopefully y'all will continue to get closer, again.

[halfshellvenus]

Oh, no... :(

I'm happy for Joe, but sorry for you. He's been an important part of your support system as well as being a friend, and this will be hard on you. Double :(

[theun4givables]

Yeah, that's kinda one of the big reasons I don't want him to go. The idea of living here when he's not physically here to curl up against when I need to?

But this is also why I wasn't ever fully relying on him to move out -- I kinda always knew it wouldn't work out that way. *sigh*