Alright, so fear has started to overwhelm me. I'm a lot sicker than I've been letting on and now I have a promise that if I don't get to the UCC or the ER in the next 4 hours I can guaruntee a ride with Stephanie and Heather. Somehow that scares me more than the cancer and other crap my body is facing. I'm bleeding every where and can't keep ( Read more... )

Alright, so out of the blue, I go to take his stuff to him. He only takes a couple of things, telling me he doesn't want to let me go and all this other crap. So, I told him I'd keep his stuff a little longer as long as he just gets his act together. THEN, this morning I get some nasty e-mails on both my AOL account and my Myspace account from him ( Read more... )

The first five people to respond to this post, will get some form of art, by me, about them. I make no guarantees about quality or type, but I will assure that I will give it good effort and that the art will be individual to you, so if you get a mixed CD or some sort of painting doodle, yours is the only one like it ( Read more... )

Frickin' breaks here. Soooooooo, yeah, Doctor's called me back today. Got cervical cancer, that's fun. Sooooooo, anyone up for getting me shit-faced drunk? I wanna get drunk. Not alone, its not fun alone, but I really wanna get drunk. I want some whiskey! That stuff Kevin the Bartender let me taste 2 SFScons ago. Smooth, woody, and delicious ( Read more... )

So, as I take the first steps to completely cleansing my life of this person, I am coming to learn that it's alright to cry, to hurt, and to look to your friends. It's also alright to be alone and reflect on self. Spiritually, I feel like I'm growing in ways I wouldn't have had I not been through all this but at the same time, there is an ( Read more... )

I don't know how to explain what has been happening to me lately. Yes, I've had my heart ripped and torn apart and its been happening for almost a year now. Yet, every time I start to feel a little lonely, someone e-mails me, calls me, or randomly shows up. Rowan's been an incredible comfort and then today I was thinking of my old friend, Jamin, ( Read more... )

I'm learning very quickly how blessed I really am. No, I'm not a SUPER RELIGIOUS FREAK, just someone whose seeing the incredible gift I've been given through my friends. I'm going through a very difficult time and there are days when I wish I could just sleep them away. Yet, through it all, I've had some really great friends. Dave, Beth(who I ( Read more... )

Alright, so I have Vongo, a nifty little thing for $10 a month where I can recieve anytihng from the Starz channel plus a decent price on pay per views. Anyhoo, some of the movies, a lot actually, are B level but can be fun. This one however takes the cake. I mean the WHOLE DAMN CAKE! There is soemthing to say when you can see a man have his ( Read more... )

So, I think that I'm learning that breaking up and heart ache have its advantages. I mean, I've filled my life up with things I couldn't do when I was in a relationship. I really think that it's actually been very good for me. I am also happy I have so many wonderful friends. I love EVERYONE ( Read more... )

So, after everything, I have to say I might be heartbroken but I feel free. Anyway, I am off for 2 weeks so if anyone wants to spend time with me, please call me. I'm interested in getting out and moving on as fast as possible. Dave is awesome and has really been there for me so I hope that one of these days, I can get the chance to be there for ( Read more... )