[multichapter] Baby Blue: Part 4: Chapter 17
Title: Baby Blue: Part 4: Chapter 17
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-15
Word Count: 1033
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: All they wanted was each other, just to be together the way they once were. But now that they have it, is that still enough?
1st February 2014
He slammed the door behind him, and paced along the side of the bed a few times, arms folded defensively across his chest, until the door opened behind him. He grabbed for the first thing within his reach, thankfully just a cushion from the bed and threw it as hard as he could in Taguchi's direction.
“Baby...” Taguchi started, but Ueda cut him off with another cushion, this one hitting him in the face.
“You asshole.” he shouted, the almost choked tone of his voice surprising even himself. “You fucking, sleazy, fucking asshole.” He threw the last of the cushions in his frustration at not even being able to find the words to hurt Taguchi as deeply as he felt, and then he reached for the next closest thing, the glass picture frame on the nightstand.
Taguchi didn't even flinch as it struck his arm on it's way to the wall behind him, the sound of smashing glass echoing after it, he just stood calmly as Ueda picked up the next thing. The alarm clock got a reaction from him, but just a slight pained hiss as it connected with his knee, his bad knee, Ueda thought a little smugly.
“Uepi...” Taguchi tried again “I get that you're mad.”
“Mad?” Ueda snorted, the sound something hysterical due to the sobs still working their way up from his chest. “I'm fucking disgusted with you”. Taguchi didn't respond, but that only fuelled Ueda on even more. “You're a dirty, stupid, selfish, idiotic, asshole.”
“It's a shock to me too...”
“How could it be?” Ueda snapped. “You must have known what you were doing...the whole time you were fucking her and you didn't even use protection?”
He could see that Taguchi didn't have a reasonable explanation to that “Ok.” Taguchi admitted “So not every time, but I didn't think this would happen...”
“It's not just about this, what about infections and shit...didn't you even stop to think what you might be passing on to me?” he snapped louder, feeling his skin crawl at the thought of Taguchi being inside him after doing it to her.
“I trust her” Taguchi explained “She's not like that...”
“Well she obviously is if she was having unprotected sex with two different men at the same time...who the fuck is the other guy anyway...he could be riddled with disease for all we know...”
Taguchi let out a defeated breath “Yeah...I guess. Uepi I'm sorry, I shouldn't have put you at risk like that...but we could go together to get tested...”
Ueda snorted “How romantic.”
“I'm trying OK? I didn't ask for this...” Taguchi started, but Ueda cut him off with a glare “Well OK, yeah...I could have been more careful...but I didn't want this to happen, but it did and there's nothing we can do but wait and see if it's even mine...and I don't want you to be angry at me until then so can we just talk about this?”
“I don't want to talk to you right now. Junno, I don't even want to look at you right now, I feel sick just thinking...” he shook his head, trying get the images out of his mind. He knew they'd had sex, he'd been well aware of that, but with this new development he was struggling to keep the images out of his mind, of Taguchi inside her, if he'd been holding her tight as he climaxed, body shuddering, ejaculating deep inside her, his release dripping out of her the way it did from him.
He shook his head again, but one look at Taguchi only brought back the images, his face contorted in pleasure as he rested his head against hers. It made him angry, and he held on to that in favour of the other emotion, the deep, throbbing pain in his chest whenever he let the reality of it sink in, that it wasn't just about the sex, it was about more, no matter what Taguchi said, if that baby was his then Taguchi would always be more than her friend, he'd be the father of her baby, one of the few things he could never be to Ueda.
“I'm going home.” he said, the words sounding sudden in his own ears after the silence, and he moved forwards towards the door, knocking into Taguchi's shoulder as he tried to pass, only to be gripped by the arm and held in place.
“Don't...” Taguchi started.
“Let me go!” he commanded, his voice louder than he'd meant, and he tugged at his arm to free himself.
“No.” Taguchi replied, just as stubbornly, gripping his arm tighter. “You're upset, it would be dangerous for you to drive like this. I can understand you being upset and if you need to shout and scream at me, hit me if you want...then do it and get it out of your system before you get in that car...”
He stopped still, his heart fighting his head as he tried to hold onto the shield of anger. “You think I won't?”
“It doesn't matter” Taguchi shrugged “Do what you want, as long as I know you're safe.”
He pulled his arm free and took a step closer, challenging. “You think I won't hurt you?”
“I've hurt you.” Taguchi said with another shrug, and Ueda nodded, his eyes turning blurry again as fear and pain threatened once more.
He lashed out, pounding the end of his fist against Taguchi's chest once, and then again with the other and again, until he found himself sobbing, his hands now grabbing at Taguchi's shoulders, grasping onto him desperately, before finally grabbing his neck and pulling him down into a kiss that was more desperate clashes of lips than anything.
He couldn't say how long it lasted, each second dragging on, deepening his need, pushing him harder into the kiss, until his mind finally found enough lucidity to pull away. He stayed close, his arms still clasped around Taguchi's shoulders.
“I love you.” Taguchi whispered into his ear, and he couldn't meet Taguchi's eyes as he replied.
“I love you too...but if that baby is yours...I don't know if I can still feel this way...”
Chapter 16 | Chapter 18
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I thought we were about due some melodrama >_< Sorry for the random disappearences again too!
Pairing: JunDa
Rating: PG-15
Word Count: 1033
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, and only the words are mine.
Summary: All they wanted was each other, just to be together the way they once were. But now that they have it, is that still enough?
1st February 2014
He slammed the door behind him, and paced along the side of the bed a few times, arms folded defensively across his chest, until the door opened behind him. He grabbed for the first thing within his reach, thankfully just a cushion from the bed and threw it as hard as he could in Taguchi's direction.
“Baby...” Taguchi started, but Ueda cut him off with another cushion, this one hitting him in the face.
“You asshole.” he shouted, the almost choked tone of his voice surprising even himself. “You fucking, sleazy, fucking asshole.” He threw the last of the cushions in his frustration at not even being able to find the words to hurt Taguchi as deeply as he felt, and then he reached for the next closest thing, the glass picture frame on the nightstand.
Taguchi didn't even flinch as it struck his arm on it's way to the wall behind him, the sound of smashing glass echoing after it, he just stood calmly as Ueda picked up the next thing. The alarm clock got a reaction from him, but just a slight pained hiss as it connected with his knee, his bad knee, Ueda thought a little smugly.
“Uepi...” Taguchi tried again “I get that you're mad.”
“Mad?” Ueda snorted, the sound something hysterical due to the sobs still working their way up from his chest. “I'm fucking disgusted with you”. Taguchi didn't respond, but that only fuelled Ueda on even more. “You're a dirty, stupid, selfish, idiotic, asshole.”
“It's a shock to me too...”
“How could it be?” Ueda snapped. “You must have known what you were doing...the whole time you were fucking her and you didn't even use protection?”
He could see that Taguchi didn't have a reasonable explanation to that “Ok.” Taguchi admitted “So not every time, but I didn't think this would happen...”
“It's not just about this, what about infections and shit...didn't you even stop to think what you might be passing on to me?” he snapped louder, feeling his skin crawl at the thought of Taguchi being inside him after doing it to her.
“I trust her” Taguchi explained “She's not like that...”
“Well she obviously is if she was having unprotected sex with two different men at the same time...who the fuck is the other guy anyway...he could be riddled with disease for all we know...”
Taguchi let out a defeated breath “Yeah...I guess. Uepi I'm sorry, I shouldn't have put you at risk like that...but we could go together to get tested...”
Ueda snorted “How romantic.”
“I'm trying OK? I didn't ask for this...” Taguchi started, but Ueda cut him off with a glare “Well OK, yeah...I could have been more careful...but I didn't want this to happen, but it did and there's nothing we can do but wait and see if it's even mine...and I don't want you to be angry at me until then so can we just talk about this?”
“I don't want to talk to you right now. Junno, I don't even want to look at you right now, I feel sick just thinking...” he shook his head, trying get the images out of his mind. He knew they'd had sex, he'd been well aware of that, but with this new development he was struggling to keep the images out of his mind, of Taguchi inside her, if he'd been holding her tight as he climaxed, body shuddering, ejaculating deep inside her, his release dripping out of her the way it did from him.
He shook his head again, but one look at Taguchi only brought back the images, his face contorted in pleasure as he rested his head against hers. It made him angry, and he held on to that in favour of the other emotion, the deep, throbbing pain in his chest whenever he let the reality of it sink in, that it wasn't just about the sex, it was about more, no matter what Taguchi said, if that baby was his then Taguchi would always be more than her friend, he'd be the father of her baby, one of the few things he could never be to Ueda.
“I'm going home.” he said, the words sounding sudden in his own ears after the silence, and he moved forwards towards the door, knocking into Taguchi's shoulder as he tried to pass, only to be gripped by the arm and held in place.
“Don't...” Taguchi started.
“Let me go!” he commanded, his voice louder than he'd meant, and he tugged at his arm to free himself.
“No.” Taguchi replied, just as stubbornly, gripping his arm tighter. “You're upset, it would be dangerous for you to drive like this. I can understand you being upset and if you need to shout and scream at me, hit me if you want...then do it and get it out of your system before you get in that car...”
He stopped still, his heart fighting his head as he tried to hold onto the shield of anger. “You think I won't?”
“It doesn't matter” Taguchi shrugged “Do what you want, as long as I know you're safe.”
He pulled his arm free and took a step closer, challenging. “You think I won't hurt you?”
“I've hurt you.” Taguchi said with another shrug, and Ueda nodded, his eyes turning blurry again as fear and pain threatened once more.
He lashed out, pounding the end of his fist against Taguchi's chest once, and then again with the other and again, until he found himself sobbing, his hands now grabbing at Taguchi's shoulders, grasping onto him desperately, before finally grabbing his neck and pulling him down into a kiss that was more desperate clashes of lips than anything.
He couldn't say how long it lasted, each second dragging on, deepening his need, pushing him harder into the kiss, until his mind finally found enough lucidity to pull away. He stayed close, his arms still clasped around Taguchi's shoulders.
“I love you.” Taguchi whispered into his ear, and he couldn't meet Taguchi's eyes as he replied.
“I love you too...but if that baby is yours...I don't know if I can still feel this way...”
Chapter 16 | Chapter 18
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I thought we were about due some melodrama >_< Sorry for the random disappearences again too!