Why does it matter if the only one I want to talk to is the one person I can't talk to?

I can't seem to keep a smile for more than 5 minutes.
My throat is beginning to hurt from all these tears.

Oh man.
I have been kinda down in the dumps lately.
And every little thing just keeps making it worse.

SO SCARED

It's freezing.
I have to pee.
& quitting smoking is harder than I thought.

Uhhh. I have barely been sober in 2 weeks.

I will miss benwinklercathleen nights.

In other news. There's this thing called hot guys. I see them everywhere. Makes me so sad.

That boy is so beautiful.

I miss him.

It doesn't matter how I feel.
I don't even care how I feel.

JKSDFHSDJFHSDFH

FUCK EVERYONE.

k thats all.
and yes you
everyone who reads this
every last person

Nothing is private. Nothing.
So creeped.

Suck my dick.
That's all I can say.