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[thegirlgotstyle]

lately i've felt a bit like a new person...some kind of weird transformation has taken place, something beginning from when i first arrived in tahiti to presently being back in california. i don't feel any urge to go out, to party, to meet boys (or anyone for that matter), to have to be forgotten conversations around booze, loud music and

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[cecibeans]

I've been feeling exactly the same way, with the exception of Vegas, not really in the party mode that much. Also, like you, I'm bored with superficial conversations and being hungover. I'm pretty content staying at home and reading, and it's basically all I do. You should come over for tea now that you're home, how's that?

[thegirlgotstyle]

that sounds amazing to me...girlie movie night maybe??? yea vegas was a "let loose" for me...damn we had fun though, no?

[almost_gold]

I have been in this mode for years, which is strange because i went totally against that in LA and partied all of the time. it was out of character. This is probably why I got so repulsed with the scene, myself, all the superficial standards i suddenly found i was holding myself to. all of a sudden my hair and accessories mattered more than my words and i caught it quickly and stabbed the hell out of it, making sure i didnt fall into that party trap again. now that i'm back, i'm trying to balance partying and quiet relaxation because you need both. hell. it's difficult.
how long are you in cali for?

[thegirlgotstyle]

hey girl...i never got to see you in "party mode!" not fair. maybe when i get back to nyc you'll come and let loose every so often? it's funny that you and i feel anti social on opposite coasts...maybe because i grew up here and you grew up there? too much "at home?" who knows...i'm out here at least till the beginning of april. poss longer...however, i will be going to sxsw in a week and a half! damn i'm excited! things good?

[almost_gold]

I know, it was fun. and i totally miss LA, seems likle it just started to fall into place for me the last month aftyer i made the decision to come back to ny. but I am partying a bit here lately too. I just find it all so obnoxious that i have to really be with solid friends and be intoxicated to not get irritated by it all, I'm so jaded, its disgusting. Things are good, still trying to settle in here, still pretty much living out of a suitcase which makes everything harder. I'm excited for spring, things feel positive. Are you with your mom right now? we definately have to go out when you are back.