Comments | thegiantjoshua: hmm

thegiantjoshua

hmm

Nov 09, 2006 05:18

am i going to be that nice guy to steal on?
you know, sometimes i wonder if finding that special person is really worth the stress. i felt at some points that i had really found someone to be with, but to be honest, never so much as now. it hurts when you like someone so much, but they have to be so distant. not even of their own accord, ( Read more... )

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paulbob37 November 10 2006, 04:15:43 UTC

Tough to comment on, except to just say: I hear ya, man.

Pensive is a good place to be though. Better pensive than obliterated and despondent, eh?

I feel similarly to the way that you do, at least I think so. I too kind of crave being sort of emotionally and experientially intimate with someone. Only advice I can give is just to be patient, and to do your best not to feel like you deserve to have that. It's a gift that someone chooses to give you (and that you choose to reciprocate), not something you deserve. Of course, I expect that you know that already, just sayin'.

thegiantjoshua November 10 2006, 06:17:51 UTC

thnx paul, yeah i know that much. it's been a long time man, you need to come back to portland and gimme a call, and we'll go play golf, bowl, or some tennis, whatever your'e up for.
hit it up: 361-441-9509

JW

paulbob37 November 10 2006, 22:18:10 UTC

Much as I'd like to do that, Josh, it's become more difficult as of late, heh. For those who didn't know yet, my folks actually moved to Houston right around Halloween. So, no Portland for me any more ;_; It'd actually be easier to go see you at A&M, believe it or not, as it's right on the way home for me now ^^ Maybe we could work that out some time and I could go visit Joey and Kristi too while I'm at it :)

1crazycaucasian November 12 2006, 18:09:10 UTC

Hell yeah! Party at my place!

anonymous November 11 2006, 17:54:23 UTC

Great post Josh. You expressed yourself very well; I can't do that like you can.

I'm sad to hear you're still having problems with that sort of thing. I know we haven't talked in quite awhile but I do know that the same things about relationships bothered you back then, too. I can't begin to understand how it makes you feel inside, having gone so long without the kind of steady companionship you seek but it seems painful to you, in any case. Can I call you up on Christmas break?

well... thegiantjoshua November 21 2006, 05:12:09 UTC

well sure you can, but you gotta tell me who you are first... =^p