so maybe i havent done such a great job of showing my feelings. fuck. imma guy- we dont do that sort of thing-- do we? at least thats what ive been told by my father- by tv- by books- by magaines... by girls. but then why do i see so many males showing "that" side of themselves? have times started to change? or are simply gender roles starting to ( Read more... )

whoa jesus. my back hurts. what the hell... sorry everyone. ive been super busy with the band... and settin up a small tour thing... friends and such. ive been sick too but im alright now. i hate throwing up. its disgusting ( Read more... )

ya know-- first i was sad now im just fuckin pissed. if she wants to leave ME-- then fine. fuck it. i dont NEED her. i dont need her kisses, i dont need her arms. i dont her taking up my fuckin time... or being a jealous bitch when it comes to fans and i definitely dont need her questioning eyes when i come home froma night out with the smell of ( Read more... )

how do i start? theres no beginning.... no middle and obviosuly no end. i mean really is there? my heart is so full of meotions and so full its bursting. it did burst. when i saw the tail lights and the the wave of my hand that i didnt even know i was doing. and with that-- she was gone... and so was my lil boy. and now im here. in this large house ( Read more... )

arwen, we spent an amazing night together. love encompassed us as we laid in bed asleep... legs tangled and hair knotted. her eyes promising her oathe shell always be here when i need her... for whatever reason. im takin her up on that oathe because i think i may need to use that oathe sometime. i love her with my whole body and soul she knows how ( Read more... )

i woke with an iv in my arm, a dizzy feeling and a stomach ache. the white lights blinded me. so ive had my eyes closed for hours. ive recently been able to get a laptop. i dont know what hapopened. they told me avery fed me pills ( Read more... )

i know i know... i sadi was through. thtough with avery and her child, but if you know me-- then you know i could never EVER do that to my famil. especially a sick one, it's avery- she counts on me. i was just in a bad mood, so when she called and wanted me to come see her cause no one else has bothered, my heart twanged and i said "sure" and two ( Read more... )

would be quite fuckin WONDERFUL right now. *eye twitches ( Read more... )

averys done it AGAIN! i dont knwo who she thinks she is but she cnat keep doing this to me... to us... to herself. she cut herself... REALLY deep and long. enough to loose enough blood to be taen and given a trasnfusion and stitiches. and all she kept sayin was when dad raped her she pictured me cause i didnt hurther and wouldnt hurt her. she just ( Read more... )

yeah-- im fuckin wound up. coffee... hyper... energy. flow ( Read more... )