am i living my dreams (or am i losing it) ✿ for oniongulru

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Title: am i living my dreams (or am i losing it)
Recipient: oniongulru
Rating: pg-13
Word Count: 4245 words
Summary: Baekhyun wasn't wrong when he said that there's no way he and Jongdae can be friends-not when one of them is bound to reach a dream robbed from the other.
Notes: dear recipient, i hope you enjoy this! title from bangtan's so 4 more. yes i went

Comments

[oniongulru]

SPOTSPOTSPOT OMG

[oniongulru]

I took so long to come here and actually finish my comment ;____; i had midterms Baekhyun's Character. The faking it on cameras (he knows what the audience wants......im die) and selfish (he blames everything but himself like srsly are you me this is the baekhyuN THE FICDOM NEEDS) Honestly you characterised him SO. WELL I was in love!!!!! (with you, not with baek he was an asshole) (just the kinda asshole i like tho ayee

[bcnf3nf]

uwuwuwuu thank youuuu

i loved this prompt from the moment i got it (although, again, i dont know why anyone would want Predebut-Alternate-Reality-Angst-Multiple-Exclamation-Marks) and i wasnt really sure how to make it Sad Enough but im glad you like it!!! ♥

[iwantchocopie]

HOW COULD YOU DO THIS!?
WHY.

this was so beautiful and /so sad/
oh god jongdae...
*cries for nine thousand years*

[bcnf3nf]

IM SORRY IDK WHAT I DID

thank you for reading and commenting <3

[snapbaeks]

I can't stop crying omg.

This was so beautifully written and so SAD.

Seriously my heart is aching in my chest.

:'((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

[bcnf3nf]

sob s i'm sorry i made u cry but thank you!!! so much!!! for reading and commenting ♥♥♥

[serratedpearls]

I read the summary and went "this can't be happy" and then proceeded to read the whole thing desperately thinking that there had to be a happy ending and i am so sad right now but it was written so nicely and i'm just so ughhhhhhhhhhh you've ruined me :'(

[bcnf3nf]

nooo dont be sad im sorry i have no happy ending

[dailanche]

NooooOOOOOooooooOOO

There went my heart! But really this was written so well. So well. And it's evil to put us and them through a survival show but what if. What if. I don't know.

Baekhyun is kind of ass here but who are we to judge, we might act out our insecurities in the same way. And who would want to be pitched against Jongdae? Talented, sweet Jongdae who actually believes they can still be friends.

The polaroid-snaps broke me though. I loved that idea (I have a weak spot myself for projects like that!) and all it stood for. It broke my heart when Baekhyun refused for the first time to take it together and it stomped all over the remains when Jongdae kept on believing and gave him that gift.

Such a heartbreaking story and I admit, I did not expected that ending! Like a slap out of nowhere and I needed life support for a few seconds to just deal with your fic!

Thank you so much for this fic and despite all the pain, I really enjoyed it and I will definitely read it again to savor all the beauty :)

[bcnf3nf]

baekchen doing the polaroid project would be the cutest thing ;u;

thank you for your comment ;;;u;;;