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I give up!
WOW...its so sad that ppl I dont even know still know im a total WEAK FAT ASS LOSER! Its going to be nothing but purging for the next lil' while...even if its water it makes me feel like im doing something productive... : / -
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I feel like my brain is going to EXPLODE!!!! Running this shop has started to tear my family apart... Everyone is always stressed and AGRO! No one seems to be getting along or communicating. So in turn things are getting put on the back burner or ignored and, the stress is piling up! Stress is my number one enemy for losing weight! I Also havent ( Read more... ) -
KILL ME!
Today has been an all together retched day! It seemed like just about anything that could go wrong, did! Then on top of everything I get this huge rush and as im helping one customer the lady behind, lets just all her BITCH, starting saying over and over "Your POPPIN', your POPPIN'!!!" and Im lookin around trying to figure out what the holy fuck ( Read more... ) -
See no evil, Smell no evil, Eat no evil....
This last week was so fricking hectic. It seemed like I didnt get one moment to my self. The shop was soooo busy, which is great for the business, but tiring for me. It is also FABULOUS that I have lost more weight this week! Im down 11.5 lbs!!!! YAY! I dont see a difference in my body which is just sad, but seeing a difference in the scale is ( Read more... ) -
Oh Memories....
I just Posted a couple pictures. My own Personal Thinspo. Its a really weird feeling looking at those pics of me...They are what I want to achieve, and maintain. They make me sad...knowing that Im not that anymore, But they also make me excited...and Hopefull...Knowing that I can be that again! -
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Is it REALLY only 2:30 in the afternoon?!!!! : / These days are to loooong! I feel Like every minute is and hour...When I started my job I thought that Having 8 Hours off in the afternoon would be awesome! So I could Nap, Workout, Get on the net, Avoid Dinner, ect.ichanged my mind...All that shit only consumes like 3 hours...Then I have another ( Read more... ) -
Day Eight
BLAH! Everyday seems to take forever, and a second at the same time. Its Been over a week, and the damn scale wont budge!!! I don't understand! A year ago, I would just think about not eating, or losing weight, and it would happen! Maybe not drastically at first, but it was NEVER this hard before! I feel like My Own Body is sabotaging itself! Ive ( Read more... ) -
Day two...
Today is Day two, of yet another quest for my perfect weight. This is THE MOST I have weighed since I started obsessing about my weight at 15. I could ALWAYS manage to weigh 120lbs. Sometimes I go a bit over that, and when I was 19 (Im now 22), I was lucky enough to drop down to 97 for a year. I honestly NEVER thought that I would ever get back up ( Read more... )